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It all takes one step forward.

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by googilybear, Mar 23, 2018.

Did this inspire you?

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  1. googilybear

    googilybear Fapstronaut

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    Hi all.
    My name is Ted. I want this forum or this website to know that I'm a 25 year old veteran male who has been struggling with porn for over 10 years (actually, I lost count). To start off with a little background, My biological mother left me and my older brother in the hands of our dad. Time went by, I have seen so many girlfriends and ex-step mothers for as many as I can count. In my high school years, my dad decided to leave me and my 7th step mother for someone else. It was heartbreaking to see that my father gave up on our lives and decided to move on with his life. He destroyed our financial foundation and the rest of us were struggling hard. I mean hard. Ultimately, it was selfish of him but I can't blame him for not being happy. Anyways, I have lost my confidence in myself, have no sense of what my personality or identity is, and began seeing the world in black and white. Afterwards, I joined the army for four years to regain my sense of duty. However, I still took the liberty to become secretive and anti-social because of my need to escape from reality. After all, it was all machismo, manly, and such to resort to porn. Get girls, get drunk, and do your job. Especially when you experience even more hardship compared to the civilian world ex. deploying. Well, this needs to stop. My mentality to overcome anything in life has been distorted from all these years. It's 2018 and It's been two years since I left the army. I am taking this step forward to become a better person in general. I have realized that I am becoming narcissistic, inconsiderate, severely anxious, depressed, and anti-social because of my addiction. I was pretty much an asshole for all my life. Now, I catch myself not keeping eye contact with people anymore. God, it is disgusting to look at myself now. Most importantly, I have lost my friends and family during all of these dreadful years. I realized that the world is such a better place than to stick to your own obsessions of materialism such as porn for comfort. I wanted let you folks know that you're not alone and I'm one example of someone who willing to put his or her best foot forward from here on out. But it will only happen if you are finally taking a stand to stop. Say No to addiction and stand on your word. I apologize for those who I have offended along the way in my life and this is my way of stepping up to be a better person. To those who need to be inspired, I would gladly offer myself to be the example. Yes, I feel embarrassed but I feel so relieved to let someone or have a place to vent out in order to change for the better. When in doubt, follow me.
     
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  2. Miss Winnie

    Miss Winnie Fapstronaut

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    You’re safe here & we’re all glad you’re here to be a better you. Got any plans or read any of people’s plans? I’m in the middle of compiling an action list; it seems to help.

    Best of luck!
     
  3. googilybear

    googilybear Fapstronaut

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    Yeah, haha. Sorry, I got so caught up on self hating my self so much I forgot to tell you guys what I want to do.
    So I'm an artist. I don't like to brag in my art classes but I do exceptionally well. I'm currrently working on publishing my comics onto Webtoons. It basically like manga but internationalized for everyone to read. It's a great way to get noticed and even start a career from them. On the other hand, I'm also interested in starting a reptile business. I have two leopard geckos and a ball python. I plan on breeding leopard geckos for the fact that they are fascinating little creatures.
    on my free time, I go to the gym to release some of my stress and anxiety. 3 times a week. I run when I feel like it. Yesterday, I felt like running in the rain for more than hour.
     
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