Is this withdrawl??? HELP!

Yes, yes, it varies, keep breathing.
I feel you bro, it's not easy.

 

Keep going. Don't go back to the hell you came out of.

 

Yes this is withdrawal. As the neuropathways porn has established in your brain break down, it will get easier and easier and you will feel less tormented. Be patient. Find some hobbies or other things to focus on. Work out. Spend time away from electronics. A private journal is a gift as well. Write daily. Torment is less powerful once you process it visually.

 

My SO made a list of all the women he saw naked. (during our relationship.. To go back to the beginning of his addiction would be unreasonable)
He called it "the Star List"
I HATE it.
It's pages long.
But he said, once he wrote it all down... It's like because it was on paper, it wasn't in his brain anymore.
And even though it's painful for me.. And I know he's seen them naked... He often sincerely forgets who is on it.
Now my problem is going
"remember, we can't watch this because you have seen her naked"
And he goes "oh yeah"
Cuz he's plum forget.
No joke.
This is a problem in my house.

So I think writing it all out is good.
Get it out.
Eventually you will run out of brain logs of flashbacks and will fill the space up of beautiful memories of your wife and kids? (you have kids?) and your new life you are building.
Good luck, whatever you decide.

 

Furthermore anytime anyone restricts the use of another members free rights to go about and enjoy the community, it's against NoFap policy.
@StraightEdge3616
And constantly engaging me on every thread I write on but not helping various OPs is harassment.
I'm asking you nicely to stop.

 

You are doing great, keep it going. You can do this!

 

I dont write my flashbacks down so much as a I write about what I am feeling or what is happening when they are triggered and begin to occur. The neuropathways porn and fantasy have carved into your brain are still very strong and prominent right now. With time those pathways start to break down and the fantasies and flashbacks will begin to deteoriate. Journaling about where you are mentallly/emotionally when its a challenge will help you see patterns in your thinking and behavior that you can work on modifying over time. You need to find something interesting and exciting and healthy to focus your attention on right now...that will also help. Don’t just be sitting around stewing over how you know porn is bad but you still want it and feeling helpless. Thats a sure fire way to failure. Think about good things you can do as a man today, and go out and do them.

 

It normal. As you heal and recover they will become fewer and far between. It’s probably been a month since I had a flashback or tormented with the imagery. Talking about P scenes or my abuse and actions I have done does bring it up for me. And they usually stay for a day, haunting me. Unfortunately had a flashback dream just this morning of P use. So while I feel like I’ve rebooted my subconscious mind still wants to go there.

I am resolved to resist those temptations, but it lets me know I still have to have ongoing maintenance and recovery in order to be free from PA.

 

Reminds me of this verse:

Be VIGILENT, be on the alert Your adversary, the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. But resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same experiences of suffering are being accomplished by your brethren who are in the world. After you have suffered for a little while, the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you.
1st Peter 5: 8-10

If you dont believe in God, the message still applies. Be vigilent. Guard you heart and your eyes. The darkness within each of us looks for opportunities to disrupt, destroy, sabotage the good in us. Take comfort in knowing you are not alone. Your brothers in arms are fighting the same fight and finding victory, and so will you. Know that with time you will get stronger and better, because you have oriented yourself to the best possible and purest version of yourself.

 

It depends on the intensity of your addiction. There is no set time frame about how long it takes for withdrawal symptoms to subside, but in general they will get easier each week of abstaining from PM. When you have some many neuropathways wired to P and fantasies then its going to take awhile. Just suppress the fantasies and flashbacks and practice being in the moment. It will take practice, and you will get better with time. You just need to hold the line and starve your brain of it.