Is This Normal?

I am in a year long relationship with a girl I really like, and I started NoFap to try and improve the relationship and rid myself of the guilt associated with viewing porn.


My current attempt is my most successful one, with today being day 115. At first the journey was easy, and I felt closer to my girlfriend, but lately I've been feeling quite the opposite. I don't know why, or if it's even normal, but at times I do not feel like I like my girlfriend. This has been on and off since mid-December, with some points being really bad, and some being really great. I do not know if this can be blamed on withdrawal or even counts as a withdrawal symptom, and I really need help because this is tearing our relationship apart. At times, I feel positive that I’m in love with this girl, but then there are days when I push her away because I feel so bad.


To provide more information, we are both 18. Every time I get a handjob or we take things too far, I feel worse about it and get more moody. I felt fine before we got physical, but after I got another handjob I’ve been feeling off for about two weeks. At this point, whenever I bring NoFap up, she just says that she supports me, but that I need to talk to someone else about it or get professional help. I created this account just to make this post, as I am out of ideas or what to do. I don’t want to break up, but I can’t keep feeling like this.


In short, I just need advice or affirmation that this is normal. Anything to help put my mind at ease. Is this normal? Do I need to get professional help?

Thanks in advance!!!

 

I quit porn for her and I, and when I initially told her I watched porn, she did not care and just thought it was normal. Also, we are both somewhat religious, and are hoping to save sex until marriage.