Liked females in the past, all the time, never even once had a gay thought, then I suddenly got one a few months ago and it just spiralled from there. I obsessed about it but I didn’t do any compulsions. Then I had a gay fantasy which I climaxed to which I was horrified at. Then the reassuring started. I first tested myself by looking up gay tests and shit like that and I would get that reassurance but the doubt kept coming back each day, leading to more reassuring. I looked at gay porn (just images, too scared to actually watch it) masturbated to it, didn’t really get an erection but then why did I get off to a gay fantasy. So then I stumbled across this website and all these posts saying people watch gay PORN and they get aroused and jerk off to it. I thought that coz I had a fantasy in my mind and not on a screen my situation wasn’t HOCD, which panicked me! I also once played this gay sex game as a sort of compulsion (giving bjs etc.) and I found that I got an erection quick which fucking made me depressed and anxious. I’m seriously hoping NoFap will help me with this situation. Is this really HOCD??