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Is this anxiety ever gonna go away?

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by ajmart96, Sep 24, 2017.

  1. ajmart96

    ajmart96 New Fapstronaut

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    For years I have been masterbating to porn. Probably since I was 13 and I was masterbating a lot earlier but without porn. Over time after looking at regular porn I moved a to little bit deeper waters and started looking at rule 34 (just trying to be very honest in this thread, please don't think bad of me) and I enjoyed that a lot.Eventually I started looking at gayporn even though I'm not gay. Fastforward just a few weeks ago, I started to look at guys alittledifferently. Immediately I thought it was because I was looking at so much gay porn that my brain thinks I'm turning bi. As soon as that happened I when though my files and deleted all the gay porn and kept the straight asI was still very attracted to girls. As soon as that happened, I started feeling really bad. I kept looking atguys even more than I did before. When this happened I started to feelweak in my arms, I had a lot ofanxiety I couldn't eat solid foods as it would mess up my stomach and I could only eat yogurt. My heart would beat faster than normal (my normal heart rate is 73, it would increase to around 85). I couldn't workout anymore because my arms felt so weak. After that I started to google what was going on with me. Then I found NoFap and some other sites. They told me that I need to give up porn and masterbating entirely forseveral weeks in order for my brain to rewire itself. However I see otherplaces that say I need to wean outporn instead of cutting it cold turkey. I am trying to do it cold turkey, but these withdrawals suck. I have since deleted all my porn and only have fapped 3 times in the last 2 weeks(normally I fapped twice a day). I still have the social anxiety that has plagued me. Now if I stay out of myhead, I'll be fine. But if I fall into my thoughts again, not only do I find guys and girls attractive, I find EVERY SINGLE PERSON attractive now! Andthen the withdrawals take effect. I'm seeking a therapist to help with thesituation but I just wanted to know ifthis is everyone feeling this way when they give up porn or if this is just me.Because I know there is nothing wrong with be gay in 2017, and I haveno beef with anyone who is gay orbisexual, I just need to know if I'm okay and these things are normal or ifI'm going to need to change my life forever.

    If anyone out there can help me, thatwould be most appropriated.

    Thanks,
    ajmart96
     
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  2. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and sometimes challenge you but not judge you.

    The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
     

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