Hi new here .2 years ago I realised my partner of 32!!! Years was a PA I think he became addicted maybe .about 6 years prior to this .He had severe PIED and we hadn't had proper sex for about 2 years although we were still intimate. anyway I was distraught. I only found out because I thought there was something phychicaly wrong and searched Google until I eventually found this site I couldn't believe what i was reading he admitted he had been watching a lot of P but never thought it would be a problem to stop so he started talking ED pills so we could have sex until he got better but continued to PMO for the next year and a half I kept finding out again and again He always lied and never admitted anything until I couldn't take anymore and told him to leave. He left for 1 day then we talked he broke down and promised to change so we went to couples counselling and the next 3 months were amazing he was so loving he said and done all the right things. sex Immediately got better cos even the pills were starting to loose effect.I had my man back . then the inevitable happened I was prepared for a relapse . I knew to expect it but what was so devestating was he never told me I had to confront him again. I thought we had at least got to the honesty stage then another relapse 1 month later. again I discovered it and had to confront him .so for the next month or so we had sex sometimes without the pills and it was ok but the strange thing was the times he used pills his erections were actually weaker than without until he ran out of them.then ED really set in until the last time we tried and he was really hard for about 10 mins then went completely limp WTF...this hasn't happened since 2 years ago He said he has done nothing but I am highly suspicious. But I am just wondering if this could be a delayed flatline now because the pills stopped his body from recovering naturally? Whatever the cause I told him maybe he just needs longer to recover and to go sex free for at least 4 weeks anyway I can't face going back there trying to have sex with him when he has ED I am now struggling to even cuddle him although I know we should to help the intimacy . until I know he's not lying.i am just so confused and can't accuse him cos I have no prove this time.but I also know he now knows how to cover his tracks and he is now an expect liar.