Invasive activities

Step Brother/Step Sister porn can be so problematic. Especially when you've reached the stage in porn that masturbating to other peoples brother/sister fantasies isn't enough, and you want to try some of your own.

Yup, I recorded my own half sister in the shower, without her permission.

It was a normal day, we got up after a night of smoking a bit of weed and chatting nicely (I was staring at her boobs the entire time) and she got in the shower.

I got my phone camera and pointed it over the door, where there is a glass window you can see through.

It turned me on so so much (PERVERT! ASSHOLE! IDIOT! BETRAYER!)

I immediately deleted the video, but not before I saw her...

This is just one of the vast ammount of sexually depraved things I have done, but it is one of the worst. I can't believe that I betrayed my own sister like that. Someone I grey up with, whom I love, who I would protect and defend from anyone who tried to do anything even remotely similar!

And why? Why did I do it? WHY!?

I guess I was just looking for the next biggest fix for my craving. Step sister fantasies just wern't enough.

I'm so sorry. If there was anything I could do to go back and stop myself, to control myself. You didn't deserve that, you have enough creepy shitheads of guys after you without your own brother - someone you should be able to trust, and rely on - betraying you like that.

This is what my addiction has done to me. Don't let it do this to you too, my fellow Fapstronaughts.

Peace

xoxo

 

I re-watched the video multiple times whilst she was in the shower (so about five or so times before she got out) and then deleted it as soon as she got out. And oh she knows, she noticed straight away, but didn't tell me. I only found out that she knew later on when she told my father. I felt kinda bad when he confronted me about it, but at the same time... I didn't really care. It wasn't like they could take anything from me or issue any punishment to me; I already hated myself enough already. I gave an apology, but it felt so hollow, and meaningless. It wasn't real, and I don't know if I can every REALLY apologize, I don't know if I am capable of actually feeling genuinely sorry for my actions.
I live every day in a constant state of self-hatred. I despise the things I have done and the person I am now; or at least part of me does. Other parts just find it hilarious that so many people have wasted their time on what is obviously a pathetic, self-obsessed loser with an addiction to pornography.

Me signing up to this was those parts that hate me wanting me to be better. They still hope I can be.

xoxo