Introductions and vulnerability

Hey everyone,

I'm new here, 28 y/o Singaporean male and I've been struggling with PMO since I was first exposed to it at around 11/12. I use it probably every other day and to be honest never really gave much thought to it until recently. I've been in a relationship for more than a year now with a wonderful girl who really cares about me. I've lied about my P consumption to her and I think what really pains me is that I think she really believes me. I started noticing my problem when I started to have difficulties O-ing when we're being intimate (I'm not sure if I have ever been "present" during sex) I guess this post is really a part of me finally admitting that I have a problem and I need to have it addressed.

Scouring some of the other posts on the forum, I read some things that I really identified with. The difficulties with arousal, emotionally numb after M (especially when I meet her on the same day) and to be honest, P is really affecting my relationship more than I would like to admit.

Outside of my relationship, when I read about the "brain fog" and concentration problems, I'm really wondering if it is affecting some of my work now. I do have concentration problems at times (especially with writing long reports) and sometimes it really feels like I'm "detached" from my work/activities in a weird way.

Well, here is the beginning of my commitment post, I started the counter yesterday morning, resisted the temptation last night and will definitely work towards rebooting. One step at a time, One day at a time!