I'm very lonely and tf how can I become happier

Hello everyone

So I've been off this forum for a while this year was really idk survival mode. It all began in September I think the schoolyear just started I was still full of motivation and started the schoolyear good.

In the middle of September my AP group on whatsapp kicked me out however I still had this forum but Whatsapp was easier and yeah I'm kinda lazy sometimes so I didn't check anymore and fapped and fapped because I'm just really unhappy.

I don't have any real friends, I'm however very popular at school (because I share my revisions I use(d) for exams with my year and the years below me, I'm kinda altruistic) but I'm a loner and however everyone knows me talk to me now and then and I'm never alone during breaks, it feels like yeah I don't belong with no one.

I thought I made a friend in October, like a real friend who'm I could tell everything. Well in October then the student councelor (or how you write that) called me to her office and told me everything I told my 'friend', thus she told everything. And she was a little bit worried but after a long conversation which was painful because she got to know stuff about me I'd rather have she didn't knew I assured her there's nothing serious (like I'm a teenager I'm allowed to have problems). Despite of the fact that that ended good and that she didn't call me again to her office, I really feel like I can't talk to no one anymore if it isn't anonymous.

Fastforward to November where the exam stress took me over and fapped a lot. The exams turned out good. These exams (I had in March) were also good. Maybe because I spend a lot of time behind my books because I really have nothing else than books and just don't wanna think about how pathetic I am.

The second trimester this schoolyear I just cried every day. I had a huge amount of work for school, was unhappy af, fapped every day, gained weight, grades were good whatsoever that's at least one thing. However idk how much weight I gained, I just know I just ate again three slices of pie. Eating and fapping away my stress, pain, unhappiness?

I just feel very unhappy, like to the lowest point of unhappy. Not suicide of course because I don't want my life to end here, as a pathetic unhappy 16 year old guy. I'm just very low. I wake up every day with a smile and no one in my environment will see me crying but inside and alone I'm just crying. I'm pathetic.

Thanks for reading. I don't want to make this too long but as you can read, my year was full of unhappiness, fapping, eating and crying.

Muslimnoporn is back.

MNP

 

It sucks indeed big time but it has never sucked to the extent of how I feel this year.

The information I shared with a former good friend wasn't serious enough to share. Even if it were it just breaks according to me loyality. I had to tell other friends what I told her so they could go with me to the student councelor telling her I am alright (I am not but no one wants to get in contact with the councelor).

However that's the past I now share barely anything with the people I know (even if I would consider them close) but I can vent here luckily after a schoolyear of inactivity.

Thanks for the tips you both and I just hope it gets better. This schoolyear has been bad on all levels. Well, it is bad. Need to survive thirth trimester now.