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Discussion in 'Women in Reboot' started by ryyyouxx_, Sep 23, 2018.

  1. ryyyouxx_

    ryyyouxx_ Fapstronaut

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    I've been extremely negative, I have no idea why!! I'm still really torn over my relaspe even though it's been a few days.

    I edged today, I have no idea if it counts as a relaspe.

    ack! this is most I felt down in my journey, I've been distracting myself a ton, but today it just didn't work.

    school is starting soon too, that sucks. anyways it's almost 2019! I don't really know how I feel about that, this year has been really quick.

    yikes! this entry is so short, anyways I hope everyone is well !!
     
  2. Grandpa61

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    Hang in there my friend. Stay away from edging!
     
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  3. Prov2416

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    @ryyyouxx_

    Hang in there. I am a 42 year old married man and I have had relapses with streaks lasting no longer than 5 days for YEARS.

    I am proud to say that I have made it 15 days :)
    It was not until a few weeks ago that I got serious about this.

    If I can have hope and courage after 33 years of PMO, then I KNOW you can be successful too. Just think about all the things you are observing and learning about yourself. Alot of the things that trigger us are REAL issues we need to be more skillful to deal with.

    For me, it is anger or anxiety. By not PMOing it has forced me to really look inward at the things I am dealing with. This PMO journey has made me a better person.....not because of my streak but the opportunity to grow and improve.
     
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  4. Solomon435

    Solomon435 Fapstronaut

    You're at a low point right now. Don't let it bother you too much, it's only temporary and not something to be taking up too much of your time.

    To help you make 2018 seem a little longer: Black Panther was released this year.

    Crazy, right? I could've sworn it was a 2017 movie.

    Okay, you don't give up just yet. All the best!
     
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  5. ryyyouxx_

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    Day 17

    yikes, I'm just barely hanging on. which sucks, schools again soon and im mega stressed about it.

    i got alot of urges recently, and im slowly giving in. which is why I feel like I'm going to relaspe soon.

    but I'm still hanging on !! the cold showers are still working, but today it was super rainy and cold, so I decided to be warm instead.

    I'm still negative, but i know I'll get over this!! I'm barely hanging on, but im still hanging on :)

    i also called some friends over today, which distracted me alot, I have to fillup my time with things to do :p

    I'm back on day 17, I'm glad I'm making progress!

    another short entry, I guess I'm really bad at writing :p

    I hope everyone is doing alright!!
     
  6. Solomon435

    Solomon435 Fapstronaut

    Don't worry about post length, it's easier to convey a message that isn't flooded with meaningless words.

    I'm sorry to hear you've been having a rough time, but good job not falling into them! Really, you're doing great.

    I hope you can go into the new year with a solid streak. You're doing good! :)
     
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  7. ryyyouxx_

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    well it was kinda expected? I'm not too negative now, I'm definelty feeling better on this streak, I'm getting good vibes :p

    I watched tons of motivation videos today ( I have no idea why, they helped alot though ) and the cold showers are back!

    I have alot of things to do ( because school started. yikes !! ) it's sad but at the same time I kinda happy, it's going to distract me tons!! :D school is still boring though, well I have to work hard either way!

    I know i said it just now but im really feeling good about this streak.

    i hope everyone is doing alright !
     
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  8. Solomon435

    Solomon435 Fapstronaut

    That's really good! I've learned that being negative on yourself when you reset makes recovery a lot harder. You are definitely not expected to do it right on the first time, so don't feel too bad. You'll get back on the streak, I know it!

    You must've seen a really good video if it helped you up this much! It's a good choice for your time.

    I wish I could fully appreciate a cold shower like you can. We're kinda in single digits to the lower tens recently. Brr!

    Good job facing school head on. Though it's not exactly something you want to do, it's gotta be done, right? It's great that you're looking for the good things of school though.

    Don't give up! You've got this.
     
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  9. Jeddo

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    Have you tried meditating? The only reason I reached by PB was because of it. Now since I have stopped, I have relapsed so many friggin times.
    There are a few good apps out there, but I found Head Space to be one of the best. Or if you prefer to follow a book, then this is the one I have used which is also really good- Practical Meditation For Beginners.
    Mediation can really help with this. Although, I found that it took a couple weeks of doing it daily for at least 10 minutes until I really felt the full benefit. But I felt it help with my urges almost immediately.
    Anyways, hope this helps!
     
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  10. ryyyouxx_

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    everything's been falling apart lately, I just had another relaspe today. i guess you could call it a stress-relaspe.
    school really punches me hard! and its difficult to juggle so many things. like tuition and classes too!

    i really need a break lol :p I spent the whole day today just doing an essay. and i got really frustrated and angry. so i guess that's was one reason to relaspe? ( also my group mates are really mean, and they don't help me at all! )

    but i went for a walk today, the weather is really cooling. it made me feel better immediately, it felt like i didnt have anything to worry about anymore. but once i got home and saw the essay I was just like " dang "

    it's alright! I'll figure something out. ( and make my group-mates cooperate with me :) )

    I hope everyone is doing amazing!
     
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  11. Prov2416

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    Hey....

    Hang in there. Don't go on a binge. Don't beat yourself. You have already identified that you are stressed out. Good....let's start there.

    What were you specifically thinking about when the urges hit you the hardest? Be specific. Let's try and start to gameplan around that.

    Hang in there. You got a team with you!
     
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  12. ryyyouxx_

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    lately I feel like ive been " loosing control. " I'm much more vulnerable to urges. today is an example, I edged. which is majorly bad!

    I've been so weak to urges lately, which really suck because they drag me down alot. i wish I was more determined like last year! I was trying to think of reasons why, but the only reason I came up with was, I'm stressed.

    im still really torn by the fact that I've been getting weaker and weaker.

    ill try to be way more active!

    sorry for the short entry

    I hope everyone is doing alright! :D
     

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