I'm Tired of This

This is my first forum too man! LOL I'm a year older than you and just started this too. I'm here for you if you need me

 

Thanks man, I know its going to be hard, and actually talking to people and reading all the success stories has really got me motivated. I want to be free of this burden and finally look at myself and be happy with who I am. One Day At A Time

 

I have gotten to a point where no number of days will make me feel like I have conquered this. Sure, I feel good about myself, but I have made the mistake almost a thousand times( literally 1000 times, just imagine) that I let my guard down. This I feel is the most important. Always be aware of your thoughts, Go through the day with conscious reminders until they become part of your subconscious. Suppose you remind yourself to not open an Incognito tab everytime you go online for a week. You will notice that even if you do get the thought to do it, you are super aware of it. What you do after that point depends on how bad you want this. Willpower is the only way you can beat this. You have got to want it more than anything. Even if I relapse now, I know that porn is not good for me. I know this inside my core. You need to be able to accept failure, accept that you are a disgusting piece of shit. The only way from there is towards the better!


Shields up Gladiators!

 

Thank you. I had two hard months and the last month I relapsed, but I am back on track and feel the power to do it again. To stay away from porn as I did the last 2 years

 

Thanks for sharing.

34yo here. Addicted my entire 20s. Finally broke through at age 32 and started my journey toward freedom. It was met with a lot of adversity and relapses. My current streak is my longest ever (54 days as of writing this). One day at a time brother! Take pride in your recovery.

 

So true man, so true. If only we all felt the same guilt we felt on day 1.


100% commitment is the only way. Du yu noe da waeeee?

Peace!

 

Almost same as you man... Most of my 20's spent on that shit(7 years). Now im on 139 days and not going back.

 

Thanks man!
How I got to 139 days is by keep trying each time i fail and fighting temptations and urges. I make promises to myself that everytime i set back i pay the consequences of feeling like shit and deal with intense withdrawals afterwards. You"ll get a lot of bumps which i still have but i keep going toward the light. It also builds willpower and conviction. You can back up your willpower by building good habits such as socializing, cold showers, jogging, eating small amount of foods and stay away from explicit contents.