I'm Lonely, Depressed, Have no purpose in life, and 25 years old.

Many in here have felt like this, your suffering isn't less important than any person to us and to God.

Just like you, I wanted to commit suicide, and unlike you, I never attempted because only after killing someone I'd be capable of taking my own life. What a foolish idea.

But someone came and saved me, and been working in me all this time. He keeps me standing everyday and when I fail, he helps through the worse times of depression and binges. And his name is Jesus Christ, anyone who knows him will say how different life is after this meeting, and we don't need to rely on my words, we can ask many others in this earth to receave this same message.

So, please, repent and give him a chance. He will help you way better than any man can.

 

get off porn if you can. that should help you feel a bit better at least.

 

I don't know what a really happy life might feel like to you, but suicide is never an answer to anything man.
It doesn't solve anything. It just ends everything.

Might as well wait around and see. You never know, tomorrow might be the best day of your life.

 

It gets better. When we are suffering through this hell of depression it feels that all life shall continue to be hell. But it gets better.
You are an addict. Imagine the crack-whore walking down the street looking for another hit? Yeah, that's you. But you're addicted to sex.
I'm saying this only to point out that there is a REASON you feel this way. It is REASONABLE for you to feel so shitty given your circumstances. Does anyone wonder that the crack-whore feels bad about herself and wishes herself dead? Of course not. Now, my job here is to convince you that your sex addiction can be just as bad for the soul as a crack addiction. Do you believe that? Do you believe sex addiction can kill the soul?
Now, once you've admitted the problem (addiction to sex is killing your soul) you can begin to see that there exists a REASONABLE solution. Change your circumstances.
Where to start? I highly recommend you try and find a 12 step sex addicts metting in your area. Sexaholics Anonymous is a good start. They have online meetings.
Rest assured - there is nothing inherently wrong with you that isn't wrong with every other human. Only, you're soul is being tormented by that demon PMO and it's killing your will to live.
Fight back!! Get help.

 

Yep. It's like getting off crack. The next two or three months might be really, really hard. Emotions, long buried, are going to come to the surface. Anxiety. Fear. Depression.
At least, that is what happened to me my first long streak. I have a journal somewhere that documented it here on nofap.

 

I have a magical, a miracle cure to depression: Its called ACTION.

Plain and simple.

Despite all the religious musings people here are giving you, its better you step away from your vices and get moving. Out of your mind and into your body.

Take a day and go out for a walk. Run if you have to exercise a bit. If anything, just do this and not do anything else.

Second, take responsibility for your condition. Understand only you have caused this. You got addicted to porn, you got addicted to drugs, to instant gratification to whatever else.

And stop talking down on yourself. Maybe its time you changed that. All I here is negativity from your post. Its time you change that. I'm not talking about positive affirmations or law of attraction and all of that stuff. I'm talking about at least saying to yourself "yes, i understand i m this way, but its not something I will stand for. Its not something I will live with. I will do everything in my power to get better and get stronger"

The bravest thing you are doing now is avoid medication to "cure" depression. Medication doesn't work. All it does is numb you to the problem you and realities you need to confront. They will always be there unless you confront them.

Throw away your computer/phone for a week. Give it to someone and ask them to lock it up for you. Say you are doing an experiment on how living without the internet feels.

As for purpose, that is easy. Everyone has a purpose, you have just been putting yourself down so you have not discover it. Its time to change that. When you don't have a purpose, you only have yourself to blame. I recommend doing the future authoring program by Jordan Peterson. Find it here: www.selfauthoring.com

you are still 25. That is pretty young. I have seen people in far worse shape than you recover. Demons that would make anyone else give up. Drugs, women, alcohol, jail time, abuse, self harm, obesity, binge eating etc etc But they did not, now they are some of the most successful people on the planet when it comes to health and wealth. You are not even the tip of the iceberg.

I feel like 2 years ago I might have said the same thing as you were saying. Now its a different story.

Cry if you have to. Then get back on the game. Be responsible, not be a victim.

 

Have you heard of Jordan Peterson ? He is a psychology professor from Canada that has really interesting couses online. This man is to me one of the most wise and articulated person I know. Man just bursts with knowledge, and has no BS approach to life and its trials. That is actually what I like most. No stupid positive affirmations and stuff like that. After I started listening to him, 90% of motivation material I see around became total bs to me .This video may interest you :



His self authoring course is really worth checking out ,and particularly future authoring can help you with articulating your plan. I completed it and it asks you to go in depth and write down where do you see yourself in 5 years and what practical steps can you take to move yourself in that direction.

 

I've got 4 years on you. You have 1460 days until you are my age. 1460 days, 4 earth's rotation around the sun. That's 16.9 90day NoFap challenges. You may not heal in 90, or even 180. But if you commit, and you change today, and you make it 1460 days, I won't believe you if you say you're still a failure. You will be done with college in four years, and could even be done with a master's degree. You will be employed. You will find a woman. All you gotta do is fuckin' say no.

Sexual energy guides our every motivation, our every decision in life. Don't waste that energy alone in a dark room full of shame.

 

I didn't read all of the replies but I just want to point out something maybe you didn't have the time to notice it yourself;
you see yourself as crappy person worthless,yet when I reread what you wrote.. Dude.. you survived and still surviving til now!
regardless any kind of addictions you have or whatever you think about yourself.. You Survived heavy shit and I can imagine that who just wrote What I read;Can truly change his life into an inspiring story for whole alota people!
How? I don't know ! maybe you need to take serious goals and actions and continue with it no matter how pain you will gain in the way.. you can handle pain. Badass