I'm kind of in a Limbo

Davinblake · Sep 9, 2018

Hello everybody,
I'm here because i though that since i'm not a porn addict anymore and since i've been around porn since the age of 11, beeing barely 16 by now, i should ask a few question to one of the largest communities of thinking people.

(Thoughs of some years ago)
My porn addiction started mostly since my younger age my parents would be extremely restictive on getting a girl or having girl friends, i have always been more mature than my classmates and the people around me so i fell in what could be called the limbo of age, where i'm 13, people of my age seem childish for the most part and people of older age seem more mature but of course most of them won't hang out with somebody that has less years or is same age as me. This makes me have practically no friends, sorry, Absolutely no intimate friends.

(now)
I found out i had gotten both gaming and porn addicted in the last years, my first real friends were actually people who just fucking used me for a lot of stuff since they were older and "wiser", i am struggling to get in relations with girls but i don't get exited by porn i ain't doing myself, and it motivates me a lot. I've been left handed since i was born and i still haven't found anybody that isn't a maniac like one of my old online friends and that won't make me feel like i'm better than everybody on this planet. My classmates are some of the closest people i have but most of them are practically retarded and by the age of 16 90% of them are on drugs and drink practically every week. Gaming made me fap more because it was creating a sort of rejection when i lost something, making me fap more, game more, study less and go out less. I'm writing this today because most of the people i know are kids and can't talk with, others are fucking retarded and i'm waiting for the school year to start so that i can find a person to actually stay with, i like girls since they're more woke in this age but, HAVEN'T EVER HAD neither a girl friend neither a girlfriend, It's fucking hateful how my parents made me SHY and Rejective to girls to the point where i was blocking them from kissing me. Just a little report

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crazybutconscious · Sep 10, 2018

Hi Davinblake , nice to hear your story. First thing, and most difficult is to accept and Love ourselves as we are and realize that's its OK to have these problems. And it's now our parents fault.
You are a smart guy, so don't blame them for your insecurities. Use your time to do something you like, like a hobby of something.

I am addicted to PMO and gaming since my 15, and those addictions made me drop off of my university graduation because i was not studying enough. I was gaming ,faping and using drugs 24/7. A full waste of time. But some of the new adults of our age do that and think its Ok. Please, don't be like me and them in the future. My advice to you is plan your lifetime goals and let those addictions be only a part of your past while you are young, don't feed them anymore, because it will be harder in the future.

As for the girls, a good way for you to lose the shyness of talking/dating to girls is: Face your fear of rejection and do not let it dominate you. When you do that the fear disappears and enjoyment arise...I was just like you at that age, i thought that i was ugly (lol), that made me shy, so my way of solving this was letting go the part of me that wanted to be the "smart sexy guy" and being more playful and funny when I talked to the girls I liked and was attracted to. Indeed girls like guys who are smart, but those who make them laugh / happy attract them more, and they start loving them. As you look more closely at the girls you will realize that they give you signs of accepting/rejection. Trust your feelings and KISS when the time has come. I bet you won't forget!

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Davinblake said: ↑

Hello everybody,
I'm here because i though that since i'm not a porn addict anymore and since i've been around porn since the age of 11, beeing barely 16 by now, i should ask a few question to one of the largest communities of thinking people.

(Thoughs of some years ago)
My porn addiction started mostly since my younger age my parents would be extremely restictive on getting a girl or having girl friends, i have always been more mature than my classmates and the people around me so i fell in what could be called the limbo of age, where i'm 13, people of my age seem childish for the most part and people of older age seem more mature but of course most of them won't hang out with somebody that has less years or is same age as me. This makes me have practically no friends, sorry, Absolutely no intimate friends.

(now)
I found out i had gotten both gaming and porn addicted in the last years, my first real friends were actually people who just fucking used me for a lot of stuff since they were older and "wiser", i am struggling to get in relations with girls but i don't get exited by porn i ain't doing myself, and it motivates me a lot. I've been left handed since i was born and i still haven't found anybody that isn't a maniac like one of my old online friends and that won't make me feel like i'm better than everybody on this planet. My classmates are some of the closest people i have but most of them are practically retarded and by the age of 16 90% of them are on drugs and drink practically every week. Gaming made me fap more because it was creating a sort of rejection when i lost something, making me fap more, game more, study less and go out less. I'm writing this today because most of the people i know are kids and can't talk with, others are fucking retarded and i'm waiting for the school year to start so that i can find a person to actually stay with, i like girls since they're more woke in this age but, HAVEN'T EVER HAD neither a girl friend neither a girlfriend, It's fucking hateful how my parents made me SHY and Rejective to girls to the point where i was blocking them from kissing me. Just a little report
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