I'm helpless

Discussion in 'Problematic Sexual Behavior' started by scavpacker, Jun 19, 2019.

  1. scavpacker

    scavpacker Fapstronaut

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    My journey this year started with 16 day streak and relapse on PMO. After it I managed to go 27 days and had sex with friend with benefits which I considered relapse since it was sex out of lust and horniness not out of love. Before I told her I think we should not do it.

    So it's been a week and today she called me to help her with her laptop. After finishing work I was about to say goodbye but enjoyed eye contact too much went to hug her and we started making out. Surprisingly it was she who stopped me several times from going too far.

    I feel weak and ashamed. I was certain it is going to be tempting but I had intention for "edging" in sexual way. I consider it somewhat like P without MO.

    I must make it 90 days before ever engaging in sexual way with woman, and I feel terrible, since I am unable to resist temptation.

    Yesterday I had many urges for PMO but it's been 34 days since I actually watched P or M'd by myself.

    Wish me strength
     
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  2. APurple1

    APurple1 Fapstronaut

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    I urge you to cut yourself some slack. To also replace "relapse" with "reset". There is hope.
     
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  3. scavpacker

    scavpacker Fapstronaut

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    Okay, be it reset but still I'm on day 0. You are right about the hope, I almost forgot,
     
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  4. APurple1

    APurple1 Fapstronaut

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    Day 0 is a fresh start! :)
     
  5. James02

    James02 Fapstronaut

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    Good luck!
     
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