I'm gonna relapse soon

What's up man.

I've been really depressed lately. Nothing excites me anymore because I can't watch porn or PMO.

I just keep thinking about the fact that I'll never see another naked girl again except for my girlfriend.

I've also been having some pretty extreme flashbacks of some of the more extreme porn I have seen. I always struggle especially with this because it's unrealistic material, meaning I won't be able to see it again unless I watch porn.

I have been meditating daily, eating better, and getting out on walks a lot. I even allow myself to MO from time to time. Nothing is doing it for me.

The only reason I haven't relapsed yet is because I have this Clean Browsing DNS, and I don't know how to undo it. I would have to factory restore my computer which is way too much of a hassle. I even tried to go to a few of my favorite websites, no luck.

Hitting 30 days was nice, but I have since become discouraged. I still struggle with anxiety, and depression except now I can't even watch porn and PMO.

Anyways I gotta get going.

Wish me luck man.

Peace.