I'm feeling so pathetic

You can, Highlander! NoBrainer had some really powerful words for me the other day when I was feeling as you are now. Look forward, truly - what was doesn't have to keep being. He wrote it way better, I'm going to try the copy/paste thing to put it here for you. I too felt trapped, years behind. Now I feel like I've let a huge weight off, and things are possible keep trying, it's not over for you..

 

NoBrainer
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You may feel weak now M L, but you can be strong. Do not let your past define you. You can diverge from your current state of mind, your current life, into the life you want for yourself. Your journey starts here, from your realisation that you needed to change.

You have the tools to change. You have God, a loving husband, a nurturing community here at nofap. You have your kids, your pets, your home. Fight for the things worth fighting for. Stand for the things you believe in as if they were worth standing for.

Fill your time with doing. I have found it counterproductive in the past to focus on not doing something. Do spend time with your husband. Do spend time with your kids. Do kindle the relationship with your parents. Do your mindfulness exercises. Over time, if you can focus on building healthy habits and relationships, you will become stronger. The pain, regret and negative habits/ addictions will wash away- to reveal the real you. The you that you want to be living.

Additionally, as I'm sure you're aware, this shit is hard. Life is hard. But you can get through it. You can overcome any obstacle if you tell yourself you can get through it, and develop an action plan accordingly. This video helped me immensely in the depths of hopelessness. "I might not have been stronger, I might not have been smarter or brighter but I made up in my mind I'm going to get through this".
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Goals:
Reach 180 days hard mode.
Scream at the top of my lungs upon reaching 180 days.
Become mentally strong.
Help others less fortunate than me and those in need.
Follow my dreams.

I can do this. I WILL do this. I MUST DO THIS

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Don't feel bad Highlander. This is a real life problem, big enough that a website was made to help us stop! Your not alone, PMO can't be grown out of. We need a conscious effert and a resilience as well. I relapsed minutes ago so my words may not mean much. But please try to take it to heart.
Au revoir,
Ace

 

Don't lose the motivation to quit PMO man. Many of us have felt that way at some point in the past. There's no easy magical way out.

You have to do the work and walk every step of the way out.

Check what your biggest issue is right now —my bet is nofap... and laser-focus 100% on it.

Once the problem is gone, you'll feel more confident for yourself, and to tackle other personal-development goals.

Don't hesitate to DM if you need to.