I relapsed today. M but no P. The urge was the strongest I have felt during my 16 day streak. Before I did it, I found myself rationalizing the decision by thinking things like: "I'm going to do it eventually so I might as well" and "relapsing is a part of the recovery process." Although I relapsed, I am very proud of myself for going 16 days. I don't think I have ever gone more than 5 days. I am very excited to continue my journey and to start thinking of this as a lifestyle change and not just a new streak. Thanks for reading.