I'm Addicted and I'm Helpless to Stop

42 days is awesome. Good job recovering your life

 

glad youre making progress arpy. remember that no matter what gives you that rush, it will never be enough. You will feel the dopamine high again and again until youre numb to it. eventually working your way up until...who knows? needing to have sex with a dead goat or something. This stuff is evil and it doesnt get any better until we stop. Lets at least make the commitment not to hurt others. From there its deciding not to be a slave. literally, fighting not to be slaves.

 

Good luck bro...You'll do this in any way. I belive in you one day beat it and be a real winner!

 

Thanks for the great journal. Inspiring and I hope you are still moving forward. I also started with the Sears Catalogue.... strange world we live in.

 

Me too. I'm so f'ing old!

 

I keep relapsing i just dont know how to stay with it! Like always i have come back with the mental determination to not relapse and keep pushing forward! This is so difficult though I know that PMO is not natural but my brain is so heavily addicted it finds weird triggers to get aroused! They say being a woman is not easy but being a man is also not something which is any easier! The Reboot phase gives such a nasty kick to your entire system towards the second week or so i feel like a teenage girl on periods! My mood swings abnormally i would be happy a moment and depressed the next for no goddamned reason!
I guess the only way out is through this no point turning back so i will keep pushing and see where it ends up eventually!

 

Very well said my friend iam grateful to this forum and subredit as they have given us a platform to help each other get rid of the most dangerous addiction yet highly ignored and snubbed addiction of PMO! We are all with you my friend and hope you find peace with this problem and are able to enjoy and rekindle love with your woman the way it is meant to be! Remember that a slave gives into his mind's urges but a KING always conquers his mind, tames the beast inside so that he can conquer the world outside! We are all in this together and let us take back our life from Porn! Yes I did relapse but not as much as i would always! I got some perspective and understood the trickery my mind plays with me! I am stronger than ever and will attain my goal! I want it and I will achieve it! We are all there for each other never forget that! #WakandaForever #UnitedWeStand&DividedWeFall

 

Keep moving brother. Just struggle with it. Spend all your energy for quitting it. You'll lose many days as i did ( i mean you'll lose time during struggling with temptations) but finally urges must disappear. Today i'm about at 54 day and urges are still wery difficult and i still suffer a lot. But keep moving and you'll do this!

 

Yes my friend very well said the only way through this is forward

 

I just want to say that you're not evil. You did some messed up things, but some of us have done things that are just as bad and worse. The addiction is one that is crippling and causes us to be mastered by our carnal nature before we even realize what's happening. What's important is that you're trying to change... Congratulations, keep it up!

 

Very well said, those evil emotions you say are nothing but the animalistic instincts in us! But as humans we are the most highly evolved animal out there and we can choose to logically suppress or overcome these urges!
If you see an animal even a lion doesn’t have any control over its urges but we humans can choose to stop them and walk away! It’s all in the mind!

 

Im under the impression that the ultimate goal is not to suppress our instinctual urges but to redirect them. For instance, the whole entire purpose of our sexual impulse, as nature designed it, is to lead us to mate in order to preserve and further the race. It's just that were overloading that system when we watch porn to where it seems to be fulfilling that instincts intended purpose, when it is actually taking you further away from what you really want (Mainly, fulfilling relationships, especially of the sexual variety.) I imagine that when we redirect this impulse to take us into the world and away from porn it's only natural that it helps us with our social anxiety. I'm not quite there yet, but it seems legit. I'm always so nervous because I'm usually so automatically focused on a girls sexual beauty that I feel like she can just sense this radiating off of me, and I'm usually scared it will make her uncomfortable. Anyways, I'm rambling like fuck

 

Very well said my friend! You are not wrong about what you have posted here! Sexual Transmutation is a real and legitamate thing! Famous people who have practised this include-
1.) Steve jobs
2.) Nikola Tesla
3.) Elon Musk
4.) Mahatama Gandhi
5.) Sir Issac Newton
6.) Mohmmad Ali!
7.) Arnold Schwarzenegger
and the list goes on and on..
Sexual transmutation is basically when you redirect your sexual urges productively believe me if you do so, nothing can stop you from attracting your potential mate, riches and overall success.Read about it! Hit the gym, Read or study, practise a hobby to divert your urges and you will find a new energy to help you achieving your goals. It is not meant to be abused! Read Napolean hill, Mantak chia etc. but be warned have an open-mind if it triggers your urges don't and immedietly get down and do 50 pushups if you can!

Porn is just a cheap escape to a fantasy world. The next time you have such an urge just imagine how sad it is that you dont get to have real sex or are not turned on by your own woman, while you binge watch to sensless, shameless nitwits go at it. Pornography is basically nothing but Documented Prostitution, The Porn industry directly utilises the services of Human trafficking circles. By not consuming what the porn industry has to offer you indirectly or directly help and save so many woman and children out there who have been forced into performing sexual acts at gunpoint. By not consuming what they sell you you reduce the survival chances of the porn industry and the human traffacking circle. Sex has been abused by them and that is not how it was intended to be. It has the power to produce an entire new human life and we have abused it and degraded its value to such a disgusting level.