If you’re on this website, you should feel proud

I've been using porn since the early 70s.

Just using magazines and peepshows, I had DE by my early 20s.

VHS and DVDs by themselves didn't change that much - except at the "adult" stores, (some of which had multi-channel video booths) - I could only watch one at a time and switching between them was clumsy. So for many years I had no problems other than DE.

But soon after I started using lots of video porn from the internet, I got PIED. Bad, as in "a hot girl is sucking on my dick and nothing is happening bad".

 

Thanks SaltedPeter. At some point in my 20s, I had compiled stacks of Maxim magazines in my closet. When I got sick of my behavior, I cleared them out to the recycling and swore off buying them, but not too long after that I started looking at P on the internet again. From one medium to another. In retrospect I see the pattern of addictive behavior, but at the time I swear I couldn't connect the dots, and thats what I think can be horrible and sometimes tragic about this addiction, oftentimes we just can't see its there until we hit rock bottom. I suppose alcohol and other drugs have a similar trajectory. Its like when you read an interview with a sober old-school rock star and he talks about how he ingested massive amounts of drugs and booze every night on tour, wrecked his marriage and alienated friends and family and you think to yourself, 'it took them how many years to see there was a problem?', but it was probably similar to PMO, the addiction started out slow and just kept growing over the years until that person was acting out of control.

But not to dwell on the negative, Ac1909 is right; we're here, we're making the steps to break this in our life by whatever means possible. That deserves pats on the back all around.

 

The teenager inside me would scoff too, but I'm 29 now. It's not really their fault either. I discovered porn at age 13 and it really wasn't a problem until my 20's. In the last few years it's become a much bigger problem and I'm starting to realize all the intense side effects. I always thought, "if I had a girlfriend then I wouldn't watch so much porn" when the reality is more close to reversing that statement to: "I can't get a a girlfriend because I watch so much porn" or "I can't function and do this and that because of porn". PMO in my teen's seemed normal and pretty much was completely normal, but now I've realized that PMOing 2-3 times a day isn't normal. Human's aren't built for this.

 

Yeah I don't understand my peer or the generation before that in general any generation because I am doing this for myself.

 

F-em. They're not your friends, you deserve people who will support you.

 

The best way I think is to look at this like NA and AA do there are those who are not using and then there are those who are sober. In Porn there are those quitting porn and those that are sober.

The ones quitting porn tend to be the know it alls and aggressors as they are still coming to terms, the sober ones have had a awakening and understand the pain all too well.

Its not unique to porn every group that wants a form of sobriety has a varied levels of members.

I like the ( movie) Bambi Rule, If you cant say anything nice, don't say nothing at all "!