I wasted my life

While it may feel like an eternity slow progression is still awesome. I've had suicidal thoughts in the past for the same reason and the truth is that it's always a day to day battle, slowly changing habits and having support here is good. I believe you can do this and perhaps as you abstain you discover you can get an erection with women. I'm not a doctor but I've read on other forums it may be a case of PIED.

 

Day 21, everything will become everything. The past won't be an issue. Please remember that your feelings of self hatred, ashamed of masturbation are all bullshit stemming from the addiction. You arent fucked up. Masturbation causes depression, lack of confidence, zombification. Porn is the salt in the wound.

Heres what:
Destroy any collection of porn.
Take a cold shower then walk through nature.
Set up filters on your devices.
Delete/trash any porn account online.

Urges will be a bitch but remember NOT 1 STEP BACK.

 

i had 10x worse man. your brain needs to rewire and it will be ok

 

We all wasted our life on PMO , and we are here to help each other , please keep moving never give up..

 

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I'm a week into my reboot and beginning to find odd things funny...

I saw your reference to "heavy porn" and immediately felt proud of myself that in all my years of porn abuse at least I'd never got into that particular genre. I saw it as the umbrella term for BBW and related fetishes.

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Is this change just a part of the mind re-wiring or is it permanent?

 

This is me and I've had women in my life. Hang in there. We all experience anxiety at times. We all get butterflies, but its about getting them to fly into formation.

 

I liked the idea of obstacles in our life are just strengthening our power ..

 

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You're only 31. If you were here talking about this at 81, maybe then you could say you'd wasted your life. But you've got decades of freedom ahead of you if you can get brutally honest with yourself, with others, and attack this issue head-on. 31 was nine years ago for me. How I wish I could say I was sitting here with nine years of sobriety under my belt ....

 

i dont think you've wasted ur entire life. there must be some good incidents/memories. maybe of childhood.

when u hung out with friends in childhood
when u went to college
when u played pranks in school
when u chatted with a girl first time
there must be some good incidents

i dont think anyone lives their life to 100% nor does anyone waste 100% of their lives.

 

Beautifully wrote, thank you, I feel it !

 

Everyday is a new day. Everyday you can choose to be the old you or the new you who is going to face up to your pain and reconnect to your heart. When we operate from a place lacking in love, everything sucks. But if you reestablish love in your heart, everything will become meaningful and beutiful. All you need to decide is to heal your heart at all cost. Your body and relationships and your wellbeing will follow.