I was with a girl during reboot

What a strange couple of days, i need some help and advice to be honest. So i haven't watched any porn i'd like to heavily stress for around 15 days now with no urge to as well but what did happen last Sunday was i ended up going to a girls house that I've known for a few months now and we did "things" lets just say, my main issue was just wondering if i'd obviously be able to get an erection and sustain it, for added insurance i took a "blue pill" and over the course of a couple of hours i had multiple solid erections but when the point came to "go all the way" i could feel it decreasing basically, i think it's more down to being anxious at the fact that i'm wondering if it'll go soft mid-sex. Although i did climax with a full solid erection which was pleasing (more so because i was able to do it with a full sized erection to be honest!). It's just a friends thing anyway so it's nothing serious or something that'll be planned again down the line but i was wondering if anyone had any comments or relateable situations or possibly a diagnosis on my progress so far based off those actions and circumstances from last Sunday? My main concern was should i have gone around there now knowing I've obviously seen a girl naked during this recovery from PIED have i damaged myself because of it or is it a different situation to just sitting there and clicking away mindlessly on porn? I think it is different because it's real life and a real person and not porn but I'd really like to know what others either think or might have been through similar things in the past to and how it affected them?

Thanks again

 

Yeah i think you're right when you say it comes down to how you feel and at the moment i'm feeling really good regarding my attitude to staying away from porn, I've absolutely no desire to watch it and am much more interested in getting better.

I personally don't think seeing a naked girl in real life and watching stupid amounts of porn when getting a dopamine fix that way is the same thing and i was grateful i was able to get a couple of hard erections while with a girl even with a bit of help but i'm planning on easing myself off them (bill pills) by only taking half of one next time if i need it and then a quarter the next time if needed etc...

 

I will definitely say i have been very tempted over the last week to go and have sex again on the basis that i was able to get multiple erections and orgasm as i've felt pretty confident over the last week at the thought of being with girls again but i think i'm going to leave it and pass until i've clocked in more days without porn and give my mind a bit more time to "want it". Still no urge to watch porn though which is a big relief, i feel like i've turned a corner this time and relapsing on porn isn't my major fear anymore, it's my mind set during future sex with girls sadly :/

 

I'm proud of most of my life minus a couple of things i'd say (porn being one of them), we are all human and all have different faults with this one being all of ours. Problem is not many outside our age groups know much about it or pretend it's not a real thing.

Real sex for me with a girl down the line again is one of my main priorities and making sure i can do everything i can to ensure it should go as normal/natural as possible without being hindered by porn. The problem is the brain doesn't want us to succeed because it has gotten that use to us using it and being addicted to it that we constantly keep having to fight it and rewire it without the knowledge of knowing how long it'll take!