After 60 days of my first attempt I felt rebooted, I was doing great, I was happy, I had great normal sex (after previous total PIED), everything was great and then I changed environment just for 3 weeks and that was enough to put me on road to relapse. I was horny so I said 1 masturbation per week should be okey, first week I managed to do it, second I did it twice, the third week I start to watch porn when masturbating what quickly escalated to fetish porn and masturbating once every 3-4 days (for past two weeks). The frequency itself is not the problem, the stupid femdom porn (that I watching) is. Omg how I hate that stupid porn, I am so disgusted by it and the women in that porn but every couple days I have weak 15 minutes when I open it and later regret again and again. Afterwards I feel without energy, demotivated, depressed, closed to human connection. After 4 days when it start to change for better I relapse again and same fucking story continues on. I cant stay clean on my own longer then 4-5 days but with noFap it was so easy last time so here I am again my brothers and sisters, this time for whole 90 days.