I think porn caused me to have hocd

I found porn when I was pretty young. I was maybe 12 when I first found it. It was always straight porn that turned me on but eventually I found lesbian porn. I never had a problem with it (something my hocd likes to use against me now) but I was never turned on by the women themselves. I haven't ever and still don't find myself physically attracted to women it just doesn't feel right to me. Don't be mistaken I have no problem with lesbians it's just not what I want. I have always been boy obsessed for as long as I can remember. I constantly wanted a boyfriend in elementary school. I've always looked at men and thought they were attractive. Always dressed nicely when I needed to incase I saw a nice looking guy and wanted to impress him. Always had male celebrity crushes.
Don't get me wrong I've definitely looked at a woman and thought she was attractive. I even had what I thought were girl crushes.But Ive learned that I confused attraction with infatuation. I know this because even then these "crushes" never felt as good and warm and amazing as the ones I've had on men. In fact they felt awkward and not right. Now that I've grown up a bit I know for sure I don't want a life with a woman.
One of the scary things my hocd likes to bring up is the fact that I've been homeschooled since I was 12. This means I missed out on all of the high school dating. But because of this my hocd likes to tell me that I never had the chance to really date either so how would I know what I like. I don't pay too much mind to it though because I know that's not at all how that works. And even with being homeschooled I still like boys.
My problem now is that I feel like watching porn (lesbian porn specifically) has desensitized me to it. There where times in the heat of the moment where I thought I'd be okay with being with a woman sexually but now it fills me with anxiety. I'm starting to realize now especially that I'm going through hocd that I'm not ok with being with a woman I might just be desensitized to lesbian porn.
I've been dealing with hocd for about a month or so and am definitely getting better but this is one of the things holding me in place. I know I don't like women even when watching lesbian porn it wasn't the women I cared about it was just the simulation that I cared about. I've tried to imagine being with a woman romantically and I can't do it. But because when I tried to imagine sex with a woman and don't feel repulsion (like those with hocd often do) it made me anxious but now I'm starting to think it was because I had a porn obsession and desensitized myself to it. I dont worry about it too much now that I'm understanding porn and what it does to a persons mind.
I know I want to be with a man in every way romantically, emotionally, and sexually. Even imagining it causes me joy.
Now that I understand my hocd I'm realizing I don't want a woman that way and am only anxious that my body will betray me (thank you groinal responses).
I would love advice if anyone can offer it. If anyone has gone through something similar. Or if I seemed to have sused it out pretty well.

 

Thank you guys for your advise it really means a lot to someone that is still trying to figure things out. I think one of the hardest parts is the not having anxiety when thinking about being with another woman sexually. Mostly because I don't know if it's because I am ok with it (despite not wanting to be) or if it's just because I've done a good job treating my hocd before this. I think what tripped me up is thinking I'd be okay with it in the first place. That and the fact that my OCD likes to bring up how many people experiment with the same sex because sex is just sex and it feels good no matter what. I am going to take a break from porn for a long while and see if it makes a difference. Thank you all either way.