i think I just had a break through. .

This is the first time this has happened. I had a dream. Not just any dream, but a dream that I watched porn. It felt so real. Here's how it went:

I was just chilling in my living room with my whole family. I was surfing my phone. So I went on Facebook and then all of a sudden while scrolling down my feed, a porn video started playing. I was 100 x more aroused. How could I not give in? I pulled it out while trying to hide it from my fam. Think about that. I was so aroused that I had to do it right then and there. If you had seen my face in that dream, it would've looked as if I was so sad but I couldn't stop myself. So when I was about to start, my mom looked over to me to find out what I was doing. I quickly put it back in my pants as if nothing happened. After multiple tries I just gave up and closed my phone and laptop (forgot to mention I wasn't on two devices). So while the urges kept coming to me I just laid on the couch trying to ignore them.

It was as if I broke.

I was almost crying in my dream because even though the porn came up unintentionally, I scrolled passed AND WENT BACK TO WATCH IT. So the second time, I intentionally watched it. I was almost crying though because I thought about my PMO counter. I was thinking that I was so close to 20 days and failed. When I woke up, I celebrated! It took me 5 mins to recollect my thoughts and realize what had happened.

My brain is refusing masturbation. My family was just the parts of my brain that was being freed from it. It wouldn't let me do it. So I'm just here to say that I made a breakthrough. It won't just be me though. It'll be all of you soon enough. Wish us luck.