Thanks for your amazing posts here on the forum, and for your dedication to your marriage and your own ED healing. It is certainly an upward call for many of us (both young and older)! I'm an old timer who remembers growing up before there WAS such a thing as internet porn (those were the days). I had two thoughts for you as an older man with 21 years of marriage under the belt, quite a bit of counseling, and a whole lot of accountability groups: (1) Assuming your hubby is about your age (profile says 24). Science says that the brain isn't even fully developed until 25, which we parents have to remind ourselves of with our teens and preteens who seem to ALWAYS make poor choices and not "get it" in terms of consequences. You will have to know what you're dealing with and set expectations accordingly for children (and husbands) under 25. I was 27 when I got married, and had nowhere near the maturity or self-awareness that you have now; very impressed by the way. Even at age 30, that's only five years of experience operating with a fully developed brain (using pre-frontal cortex vs amygdala) and beginning to connect dots as adults do. Patience will be key. https://www.urmc.rochester.edu/encyclopedia/content.aspx?ContentTypeID=1&ContentID=3051 (2) Consider whether the "You lie. I leave." mantra could be SLIGHTLY adjusted. My mother-in-law gave me a book years ago, showing that it was proven that punishing children for lying causes them to lie MORE. The exact opposite approach, ENCOURAGING honesty & REWARDING honesty & CREATING AN ENVIRONMENT of honesty, is 100x more effective than punishing lies. In fact, among the most stringent parents whose kids were disciplined the most, once these kids did blow it - studies showed these kids lied the most and worked the hardest to cover it up. THEY UNDERSTOOD CONSEQUENCES for lying (but not the freedom and acceptance that comes from honesty), so the reinforcement of "negative consequences for negative behavior" backfired. Rather, reinforce positive consequences for positive behavior (ESPECIALLY for lying). Now with my children, I focus on nurturing, growing and fanning into flames TRUTH, not stomping out and destroying LIES. The former, though counter-intuitive, has had better results for our family. Given how much work you've done (and I haven't even begun to read all your journals), I'm just going to assume you're already doing this, because you probably are. And yes, don't fear - that therapy will help him mature and get accustomed to opening up and being honest. Maybe the mantra is "Remember, if you're honest, I will still love you and accept you, even if I'm devastated by your behavior. Test me out on this. You'll see." (there's no threat, only the invitation to come to you, to trust you with his heart, to have something to hold onto to guide him safely to harbor if/when he fails... honesty with a loving and understanding wife who's battling her own demons). And if you have created the safe space for him, and prove to him it's safe by accepting the thousand little truths he DOES tell you, he WILL be honest when he blows it. That will be your moment of truth to demonstrate you are the woman you promised you would be (even as his truth tears you up inside). This is very different than waiting and dreading finally "catching him" ... then walking away. I don't know you, your hubby or the extent to which he lies etc so if this helps, great. If not, or you need to adjust the mantra (ie you don't mean test relapsing and confessing; this is not a hall-pass) I totally get it. Every man is at a different place in their journey, maturity, and development. I won't pretend to understand his. Can't remember the name of the book, but just google "children lying and punishment" (here's an example from a Time Magazine article) http://time.com/3628783/lying-punishment-kids-lie-more-study/ Thanks again, and stay faithful. You two will make it - so much farther along than we were at that age! Look forward to reading more of your posts!