I still have insomnia to this day, pls help ;(

Captain Rex reporting. So, I have made some success stories recently and while that is all true, I still have health issues to this day, with insomnia being my biggest one. It's really killing me lately. I'm getting sleepless nights often now with 3.5 hours being the lowest so far and it sucks. It's wreaking havoc on my health and I've had it forever with no success whatsoever. I really need help.

Yes, I know, it might be because school so damn stressful. I failed a history test and I have until a certain date to retake it. It's already bad enough because my grades are low on that class and I'm afraid of underperforming on the test due to lack of sleep but I've been studying quite a bit anyways, so it might not be that bad.

Anyways, I really hate it. I hate this feeling of tiredness I get during the day. I'm feeling tired of having to take stimulants like coffee during the day. I just want to be bursting with energy throughout the day but no. I'm also tired of having to take pharmaceuticals before bed. I just want to be able to sleep unburdened for once.

I'm just tired of this. It's been what? Like over 14 months? And I still have this godawful disorder?! I'm really feeling hopeless right now. I just don't know what to do at this point. It feels like it's not going away any time soon. I need help...

So, does anyone have any suggestions? I just want to cure this damn thing forever more than I ever want a girlfriend. I really need all the support I can get from this community because seeing a therapist isn't really helping much. I just want as much advice as possible and I don't want the obvious ones like not using technology 1 hour before bed or using the bed only for sleeping or you know, "getting busy" with somebody.

Anyways, I want as much support as possible from this community. I know I've made a ton of posts about this issue but it's true, it's really hampering my success. I'm feeling tired and hopeless right now and if I want to live a healthy lifestyle, I must beat this inner demon once and for all! Captain Rex, out.

 

Ok so yes, I do actually have very good sleeping habits. I do a majority of the things that you listed such as meditation (I shoot for about 20 minutes a day, more if I have time), exercise (whether it's riding a bike or weightlifting) and of course, reading.

Oh and yes, I do follow a religious routine every night (occasionally I stay up late during weekends) and I have night mode on all of my devices so yes, I actually do know how to sleep properly.

So, the entire time, I LET my sleep anxiety persist. I was feeding it by being anxious about not getting enough sleep and feeling bad in the morning which only fuels it, putting me in a loophole, a neverending cycle of pain and suffering.

So basically, I realized that the only real way to heal is not by meds or any of that bullshit, but by simply not giving a shit at all. That was how I overcame the flatline which for this, it shouldn't be that different.

So, overall, what I realized was that I was just being female genitalia when I wrote this post. I was simply being a sore victim. I didn't have to suffer, that's only optional. Pain is unavoidable but suffering is not. All I had to do was change my mindset, 'nuff said.

-Captain Rex