Slight trigger warning I was on Youtube edging to certain videos. I then looked up eye contact planning to edge. I clicked on this video and all my desire to edge went away. I felt connected to a person on the screen. I realized how lonely I truly was. I started crying halfway during the video and maintained eye contact the whole time. It was so hard. I started feeling my face turn red. This video really made me realize how lonely and socially anxious I am. I remember I had a friend who was a girl who looked at me like the girl in the video. Now I can barely maintain eye contact with anyone. I just look at their eyes for one second then look away. This video really made me cry for 45 minutes after it was over. You know whenever your a kid and you can't stop crying and your kind of making noises. That's what I did. I feel better now that I let all those emotions out. I will now try my best to maintain eye contact with everyone. I feel so pathetic actually bonding with a person on the screen. This post is probably very pathetic, but it's what actually happened.