I never had a night this bad

Hello,

I had the worst night ever. I just could not really sleep well. I never had so many sex and PMO dreams in a row. I had a PMO dream and in this dream I was like "Do you really want to relapse?" and then I was like "Ah,fck it" and I PMO'd in this dream. I waked up rly shocked and thought "Nah it was just a dream" and then slept again. I had dream about PMO again and waked up again and this was like 4-5 times in row. I feel terrible. But there is one another thing why I feel terrible. I stopped sleeping because I was so tired of these shitty dreams and I didnt want to get another one. And after a few moments a sexual thought pop up. Usually I dont indulge in those thoughts. Im not even fighting those because they are nothing more than thoughts, I just focus on something different. But in this case its different. I was so tired and I wasnt even rly awake so I just indulged in this sexual thought. I had a boner and was moving my dick back and forward but i didnt do it with my hands,my dick did it like on its own. After like 20 secs I was like "OH HELL NO! YOU GOTTA STOP RIGHT HERE WITH THIS DISGUSTING THOUGHT! and I did. Idk if i should reset because this night was just terrible and i feel terrible. I want these stupid dreams to stop

 

I do have future plans. But first I need to give up this piece of shit called Porn addiction. I am glad that I noticed after 3 years that this shit is bad for me. I want to be happy and become a person who I want to be. It really scary how addicted my brain is to this shit, I mean since day 2 I only have sex dreams or PMO dreams. All this shit but I still did not PMO. I swear to god I will kill this disgusting piece of shit addiction.