I made a list of reasons as to why I am quitting this

And would like some opinions on it, but even if not, maybe it can help someone.
I am pretty sure I can add more to the benefits side, but I am drawing a blank at the moment. Guess I can update it later.
Going to read this every two three days or once a week so as to affirm to myself/remind myself of why I am doing this, so I don't get offtrack by forgetting what this does to me.

Spoiler

How Porn is Holding Me Back:
1. Porn destabilizes me emotionally. It makes me more depressed, anxious, irritable, prone to sudden mood swings, demotivated(no interest in anything including improving my life).
It reduces my self esteem, makes me feel worthless and hopeless, helpless.
Makes me feel as if people are better off without me, and therefore leads to feelings of isolation and wanting or definitely isolating as a behavior.
Makes me jealous of everyone and everything around me.

2. It reduces my energy. I have much less stamina and get tired far more quickly, mentally and physically.

3. I can't concentrate as well, I frequently daydream and keep getting distracted.
Hypofrontality basically.

4. I value the short term much more than the long term. This leads to stupid decisions like too much ice cream or sugar laden material which makes me feel even worse.

5. It makes me distrust myself and increases self-loathing. Here I am, truly wishing to quit and live what I truly want to live, and yet I keep coming back?
I get its neurochemical and wiring based, but nonetheless, I can REWIRE myself.
Time to change.

6. It makes me more socially anxious.
More than that, it significantly lowers my interest in people. I generally find them irritating and hard to be around.
...I am unable to see how much they matter to me, and how wonderful each individual is.

7. It reduces my creativity and imagination. Seriously, me writing off porn and when positive is so much better its not even funny.
This also plays into social interaction, as I get much more passive and wait for other people to talk about something interesting first.

8. It increases by a thousandfold the amount I overthink, get depressing thoughts, gives me suicidal thoughts and makes me treat myself worse than I would treat dirt.
It increases by a millionfold the amount I PROCRASTINATE and avoid taking action.
Action is the only way life gets better. Always, no matter what else is there.
It makes action seem pointless, it makes me take a backseat and passive outlook on everything in life.
I go "oh I am so sad" instead of exercising, I go "but oh it feels so hard to start and it will take so long and is so hard" instead setting a 30 minute timer AND GETTING STARTED.
As time goes by, this decreases.

9. It wastes massive amounts of time. Think, 3 hours spent watching porn(in a single binge, mind).
The amount of things I can do during those 3 hours is STAGGERING AND THEN SOME.
Now take that 3 hours, and repeat it every other week, month, day.
I can get everything else back, I am never getting my time back.

10. As mentioned, withdrawal and while using side-effects are very real.
When using: Complete lack of focus. Seriously. Constant goddamn brain fog. I am in full on zombie mode when I use every day.
Days pass like the wind, their weight and the weight of time gone by is lost on me.
I am completely emotionall numb and have no empathy for anyone or anything.
I could die, others could die, and I would just look for the next hit.
Also extremely light sleep, no energy, severe social anxiety(can't even look someone in the eye), makes me extremely rude and arrogant(like I know everything better than anyone out there and god is below me as well).
I can't connect with anyone, at all.

When not using(withdrawal, a normal part of recovery that shows your brain is undoing damage and strong wiring):
Depression + suicidal ideation
Lack of motivation and drive to an extreme degree
Isolation
Anxiety
Pointlessness/hopelessness/helplessness
Worthlessness
Guilt/shame
Even less energy in the beginning of recovery
Complete dissatisfaction with life, nothing is interesting or fun to any degree at all, NOTHING(in the beginning, changes as I use healthy habits like meditation, exercise and improving my life)
Mood swings and sudden emotional storms, and in my case random held back emotions which I can't even place all the time.
CRAVINGS TO USE SOMETHING WHICH I DON'T EVEN TRULY WANT ANYMORE. That's normal though, work through em with urge surfing and getting out of the house.
Irritability. Can't see when someone is trying to help me, or get irritated because I feel their help is useless.
Feel like no one gets me(factually untrue thankfully.)

11. I don't even play games or watch TV. Seriously, PMO takes away interest even from near mindless activities, that's nuts.

12. I am always running away from any sort of pain, hardship or effort.
You literally cannot live life like that.

13. I use my knowledge as an excuse to not help myself.
I consider myself doomed to be depressed, doomed to relapse, doomed to have a craving last forever, that relapse is inevitable(if not today, tomorrow), to not take action and feel like I can't help myself.
Worst thing is I don't realize I am doing it until too late.

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How Quitting Porn Plays Into Letting Me Live the Life I Truly and Actually Want:
1. I am much more emotionally stable when not using P(takes a bit of time to appear and takes effort more so to appear, using healthy methods).
Meaning less time is wasted in dealing with emotional troubles.
More time for healthy action and things to do.

2. I connect with people more easily. 100% true, I talk to people more easily and about more subjects.
I am less afraid of rejection.
More willing to talk about different subjects.
Gain a LOT more satisfaction from social contact.
I joke more often and am more humorous.
I even take the initiative in social interaction and hanging out sometimes!
I maintain eye contact, and am MUCH more interested in people and appreciate them all without exception, a lot more.
I answer when asked questions, and am more comfortable in my own skin around them instead of squirming every second.
I am less apprehensive about talking to people. Much, much less.

3. I start enjoying things more. I enjoy talking to people, playing games, watching shows, spending time outside, developing my hobbies and studying ad everything in general!
Life seems brighter, food tastes better, music resonates more.

4. I take action much faster, more frequently and constantly.
I spend time thinking much less, and take actual steps towards improving my life.
I do this by utilizing self help techniques like exercise, meditation, staying aware of destructive thought patterns, not overthinking and staying focused on improving my life.
I rebuild my life instead of wasting time.

5. It gives me more time. SUDDENLY, SO MUCH MORE TIME. LETS FILL IT WITH GOOD AND LOVELY THINGS LIKE DRAWING AND LEARNING AND LIVING MY LIFE WOOT WOOT.

6. Better physical health. I have more stamina, mental and physical.
And I don't constantly suffer from a blocked nose or feel like I have a constant cold.

7. Better concentration. HOLY SHIT, YOU ARE TELLING ME I CAN READ A CHAPTER OF BUSINESS STUDIES WITHOUT CONSTANTLY THINKING OF SHEEP OR APPLES OR GENERALLY DAYDREAMING?
BRO I AM ALREADY THERE WOOT WOOT.

8. I regain interest in things.
You-you are telling me I was interested in doing things all this time and my mind was just too numb too realize?
YOU TELLING ME I ENJOY GREENERY BRO?
GIMME DAT SHIT.

9. I am more enjoyable to be around. This is obvious.
I like lifting people up in general and try to help in what ways I can.
I enjoy helping.

10. A better mental state means I am more willing to do things and take new interests up, to try things I normall wouldn't do.

11. I am happier and more positive, I am no longer in a constant self-pitying state.
I look forward to life and every day, and look forward to working on myself and things I actually want.

12. I don't run away from pain and hardship. Those are unavoidable aspects of life, and I can finally handle them by helping myself stand up and learning how to handle stress and emotions and what not.

13. I don't make excuses. I know I am responsible for what I do about whats going on within myself, for my actions, and for reaching out for help and talking to people.
I don't let depression, or negative thoughts, or feeling helpless/pointless, worthless or hopeless or any other such feeling stop me from taking positive action.
In fact, by taking positive action, I work against those feelings, and make myself feel better, and rebuild trust and respect for myself.
I don't procrastinate, and actively work against procrastinaton.

14. I live in the moment, and take action in the moment without putting it off for tomorrow.
I don't live in the past, and I don't worry for the future, because my actions NOW are what matter.

15. I see my knowledge as knowledge and not as shackles, I use it to empower myself to take proper action I.E. exercise/meditation/positivity for depression, urge surfing for cravings, and taking constant action.
I don't take a backseat and consider myself doomed to suffer, I actively help myself and improve myself.

Background:
I have been doing this for about two years, and while I mostly have a solid recovery plan...for some reason I never did this.
I don't know, maybe it was hard to confront what I would write. Either way, this was an important step that's been delayed far too long, and one of the final pieces of my recovery, if not the final.

 

Aw gee, thanks. I am glad you guys liked them!

@NooseAnchor think I will leave that in to illustrate the stupidity of brain fog