I m going for it

this is my second time surfing nofap the first time i succesfuly conquered the 1 month challenge and so i rewarded myself a pass to fap lol. since then all i do is fap at least once a day, watch movies and play video games , it is the summer break but damn i m feeling useless. After that month i didnt really notice any difference not like people say that this nofap challenge changed their lifes but after losing what i had i really do see it, i had stability, i had comfort, and i had my confidence and selfworth, now all i do is regret fapping and still go for it every single day. Its kind of depressing really but when you dont have much options fapping is a time filler i guess.
well i m back and i m determined to stop fapping, i might not succeed but i m gonna try anyway. I know that this challenge helped a lot cause before it i never even reached the 1 week without masterbation so now i m gonna rely on nofap again hoping for the best.