I lost my virginity to a prostitute

Hi,

I lost my virginity in a random sex encounter and i regret it. it was worse than sex as the guy treated me like shit.
i just wanted to have sex before turning 30 n now i regret it.

I dont know how to live with this fact.

 

@Kurmutziku and @recoome, it is so important that you forgive yourself for your past actions. Reliving it won't change anything. You both have regretted the experience and as such know what your should have done. Take the experience and grow from it not allow it to stop your growth.

 

Yeah, forgive yourself and move forward. Sometimes, typing it out on a forum like this helps with the process.

 

The past is over. Only look forward.
And if you look back at all, then look back always positively.
The past has made you to that what you are now.

I too lost my virginity to an escort, but I see it positive:

I was a virgin for a long time. One day I fell in love with a woman. But when she heard I was a virgin, she tossed me away.

I was devastated. And so I ordered an escort, a very good one. And she taught me everything.

Months later, I lied to the girl, and said that I had had an affair, and that broke the ice. We had some pretty nice time then.

So I too lost my virginity to an escort, but on the positive side, this women gave me a lot of self-confidence.

 

Exactly that is the right attitude. Whatever happens, we are always learning.

There is a good saying: "The only way to avoid mistakes is to do nothing at all"

You even need to make mistakes, otherwise you can never grow.
Every successful businessman also had big downfalls. The same is true for love and relationships.

 

This is true. Not judging others helps. I've realized that I regret my past more so because now I can no longer judge others as I have also make mistakes. But now I try not to pretend that I'm morally pure. I mean why judge others and compare and try to be on higher moral ground.

 

I do not think sleeping with a slag and then lying about it so you can bed someone else is very good behaviour tbh.

 

I know.
Just BTW, she was not better either. Or is it nice if a woman tosses you because you are a virgin?
I lied and she wanted to be lied on.

The whole world is made up of lies.

But I learned from it.

 

This thread help me reflect

 

True to some extent. not the whole world but yeah there are so many lies around.

 

Loosing your virginity is never pretty...
I lost it with my first gf she was also a virgin and it was pretty bad...

She was hurting, could only get the tip in etc...
Even tho we loved each other it was still a bad exp...

Dont fall for the hollywood crap with all the romantic stuff etc...
Probably around 90% of the loosing virginity stories are either bad or funny but not romantic so dont be too harsh on yourself...

 

Tru

True

 

And I too did that prostitute thing but never repeated that..

 

Yes, that's the way to go! Only by making experiences, you grow. Therefore, never be afraid to make a so-called "mistake". Take it as a learning experience.

 

I lost my virginity to a prostitute when I was 30. I recall my almost immediate ejaculation and subsequent embarrassment and shame.
Since then I have been 3 more times with prostitutes and all have been plagued by either PIED or premature ejaculation.
Unfortunately, unlike others in this thread, I have learned nothing from these encounters. This is probably due to the fact that I was always too petrified by anxiety to ask for direction.

I am now 36 and have never made love, only business transactions.
I am terrified that my sexual dysfunctions will persevere even if I find a woman to have a true intimate relation with (and due to my social anxiety that's a whole other mountain to climb).

Would I prefer to still be a virgin? I honestly don't know but I do regret my experiences with prostitutes and vow to not repeat them.

 

We are here to help as much as possible.

 

Thanks for your bravery of sharing, I learnt your lesson. People read your post shall be grateful and keep this lesson in mind!

 

About understanding the porn addiction: read the following link
at the very end it has Recovery method ( I also recommended you feel fear of porn, it is real evil).
https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/you-must-quite-addicts-this-is-why.87205/#post-703153