I just realized I have a problem

When I was younger I worked at a sex shop and thought I was more mature than my friends because I knew more about sex, toys, pornstars, etc. From that job I ended up working on actual porn sets (behind the camera, not as an actor) and this made feel even more empowered to be a porn advocate. I have had the notion for years that since I was so close to the industry that I couldn't fall pray to the addiction that others talked about. I was wrong.

Without noticing it I have slowly pulled away from my friends and family. I have become a loner who rarely talks to strangers and has found it very troubling to speak to woman. In my mind woman were too difficult to deal with or understand and coming home to porn was a better use of my time than attempting to attract a mate and have sex. Two weeks ago I googled "How much is too much masturbation" to see if there was a negative health risk to my frequency. That was my tipping point. Now I could see that watching porn everynight before bed was not to help me sleep. I also noticed that I was drifting into the darker and harder porn. I used to only watch porn where the woman were clearly enjoying the sex and seemed in full control of their bodies. Now I'm watching scenes with woman being "raped" or treated like objects and they don't seem to enjoy the sex at all. That is not the type of person I want to be. I have 2 young nieces and they don't deserve to grow up in a world where men see women like that, even if it's fantasy.

I'm here to walk away from porn and get back my life. This is day 1 for me.