I AM STILL ALIVE

Hey guys. Hope everyone is doing well. i am writing this after a relapse from my 30 days of nofap NO PMO that ended today because of some stupid ads on my chrome popped up which included a girl naked and it lead to some serious cravings and crappy excuses which made me relapse.Anyways not here to talk about my relapse but why those 30 days that i did were special atleast for me.
First i am going to post two links of my previous relapses and do read them as they are going to tell you how broken i was after them and i am going to answer some questions that i asked in the second link. So please it might take some time but i assure you it's going to be worth it
1.. https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/chaser-effect-got-me.96941/#post-797013
2.. https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/why.97969/
In the second link i asked myself some questions and i am going to answer them now. I asked myself why do i make fake promises? well because they were fake and i wasn't serious about them. From now on if i gave my word i am going to fulfill it. Second thing i asked about myself was that why do i fall again and again? well because i wasn't pushing myself hard enough. i wasn't giving it my all. From now on i will try working on that. Why do i enjoy watching porn and also hate it at the same time? because i am addicted to it and addiction always comes around whether you like that thing or not. Its our mind that controls them. So i need some mental strength for sure not that i don't have it but need to strengthen it more.

When i started here posting on nofap. i had good three streaks 9,36,46 nothing too great but for me they were special. Even though i failed in the streaks but i always did better than the last one and then after that everything went downhill i relapsed 3 times in 10 days, first on 31st march, 2nd on 1st april and third on the 9 of april. After these relapses i was broken, almost like someone beat the shit out of me. i cried in those two relapses which i have linked up above. I thought that i am never going to be able to get over this addiction, i lost all hope.....
Now starts my comeback story. We always have a choice guys either to give up or keep moving. I was just going to give up but then i remembered how my life was without PMO,Whenever i went without pmo even if it was for a short period of time those days were literally the best days of life. when i remembered all these things something clicked in my mind and i thought to myself it wouldn't hurt to try again man. so i kept moving forward day by day and eventually got myself level and did 30 days. Yeah i know it sucks that now i have relapsed but i am also proud that i was able still find the strength in me to get back up and keep moving. i wont be backing down now already up and over that relapse looking forward.

GUYS WE ALL HAVE A CHOICE NO MATTER WHERE WE ARE IS TO GIVE UP OR KEEP GOING FORWARD. THE QUESTION IS WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO PICK? MOST PEOPLE PICK THE FORMER BECAUSE ITS EASY TO GIVE UP, ITS EASY TO BE LAZY, ITS EASY TO LIE THERE AND DO NOTHING. BUT IF YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO CHANGE, IF YOU WANT TO ACHIEVE SUCCESS IN ANY AREA OF YOUR LIFE THEN YOU HAVE TO ELIMINATE THE OPTION TO GIVE UP. ALWAYS BE WANTING MORE, ALWAYS BE STRIVING FOR MORE, ALWAYS BE STRIVING FOR THE TOP.

STUMBLING AND STUGGLING IS BETTER THAN STUMBLING AND GIVING UP