I am seriously considering masturbating again (after 1 and half year of NoFap)

I agree with you looks don't matter at all. I'm good looking and confident, but can't get a girl because i'm sensitive and weird.

 

Stop this toxic addiction you have towards her immediately and move on. Find videos on utube on how to move on after a breakup.

Or dont, continue to be a pu...y. Its your choice.

 

Your whole post revolves around this word, infatuation. This means: consumed by a foolish or extravagant passion for another person. This is in stark contrast to love. You like her and you have an extravagant passion for her, but it is unrequited. You have to let your feelings go because they will never lead to a relationship. Your passion for her will only lead you to masturbate over her. However, masturbation is not the solution to this (or anything). Focus on your goals.

 

I wish it was as easy as you said. I'm saying that if i masturbate (not over her), i will get rid of this infatuation. I'm currently studying about 16 hours a day. I took a break today. Because i couldn't stand it. I know this is not love, or else i would've wrote love there. I can't find a way to get rid of it, although i have to be strong. What i am saying is that if i masturbate i'm ambitionless, if i don't i can't get rid of the infatuation, this is not good.

 

I get what you are saying awesome dude, lol, but it doesn't work like that. Masturbating over some other woman (in your mind) is not going to make your infatuation disappear. As I said, to gradually remove the infatuation, you need to focus on your life goals. Good luck.

 

Yes, good luck and consider what I wrote to you mr awesome