I am new here. I want to turn my life around.

i stumbled upon an article of a guy a chronic Masturbator and Porn addict struggling with memory and hair loss and how his life is now a wreck.

After reading his story i couldnt help but feel guilty, as i am going through that same struggle. I am 16, a former A student (now B), a social and friendly guy and a chronic Porn and Masturbation addict suffering inside while hiding from friends and family.

I have been Masturbating since i was 11 after wrong friends introduced me to pornography.

Been in bondage for the past 5 years as i've tried to quit on numerous occasion but i fell right back into it.

My greatest run was for 2 months, right after recovering from a testicular torsion surgery which believe me or not i think was caused by my chronic 25 times a week wank.

Recently i found out i am having difficulties with my memory. i cant remember stuffs easily and memorizing is equally hard, not to talk about the selfpity, hairloss and pain i've been going through silently.

As a student my performance have dropped so far and i have decided to stop this menace before it ruins my life even further. I hope to keep you all posted as i try to get my life back on track. Gladly looking forward to your encouragements and help.

 

Thanks alot for the kind words.

 

Thanks alot. I really appreciate the kind words.

 

Hi Guys, Today was great. Had no urge whatsoever and I did adjust my schedule today to do things I rarely do, took a long walk, stayed outdoors for a while before returning home. The few moments I was alone at home I spent my time making proclamations and prayers (I am Christian). I am already feeling confident, can't wait to complete my first 7-day streak.

 

Day 3 and today was rough. Woke up with the urge to jerk off but I rebuked it and went about doing productive tasks, even decided to extend my run to the end of the month. The weirdest thing happened today, My crush and I were chatting (she's a very hard girl, rarely dabble into sextexts) and surprisingly she initiating sex talk and naughty chats and I played along I got shocked when she sent a nude picture of her ( didn't request it whatsoever), as if she was being used to break my vow to myself, I was really tempted to jerk off cos she is very curvy and I found it even shocking that I was able to stand my grounds despite huge temptation. I deleted the picture and the chat history so I never get to look back at it. Till now I am still shocked at how I have been handling temptations here and there. We move forward.

 

Been having reoccurring thoughts of her naked but I am fighting back hard.

 

Looks like it, we've gone out few times. kissed twice, largely involved in each others life.

 

I am into Day 5 and I am having a little worry. Would appreciate help from the experienced fellas. so far into my run I've discovered I no longer have morning woods or occasional erections, possibly what NoFap users call "a flat line", my penis have kinda shrinked. is it something to worry about? Would it make me have a low libido as I grow? Since P was a factor in getting arousal, now I have stopped it, would it affect my brain from initiating arousals? Scared of having ED in the future.

 

An Accountability partner? How does it work?