How strange have your fetishes become before you realized it was time to quit?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by wakingthelionsinme, May 28, 2018.

  1. Dogan.211

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    hidden camera porn. Also big orgy's. Turkish porn. these was my Invincible desires. After watching all these things have become my irreversible enemies. I hate them I hate masturbation I hate ejaculation with myself. I hate nude pics I hate fucking people watching. So why do I have to continue to watch to do to ejaculate and remorse!!!!
    Why???????
    I'm practically it is the simplest things in life to achieve. What why we are relapsing, crying.
     
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  2. MasterRoshi

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    Not at all :)
    just want to make it clear for others reading that I am the type of addict (like many others) who literally has no control over what I do while in my addiction. Almost nothing is off limits and the things i haven’t done are things that I could have done but didn’t have the opportunity.

    For me this is way beyond and willpower. I’m jealous of those who can “just say no” :). Unfortunately that’s not how it works for an addict of my caliber.
     
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  3. Reading your comment, I asked myself the same thing, why do I keep relapsing. Is it the good feeling I get from pmo? Am I missing somethin in life?? I realized that I’m scared nothing will get better and I feel so crappy that the only thing that will give me a sense of joy and relaxation is to relapse and I’ll come back fresh minded, but that’s never the case, I need to realize that.

    Just keep pushing and fighting the urge. Meditation helps self control as well as being more aware of your thoughts, which is important. Also, exercise and eat healthy and clean, these practices will make it easier for you to take the healthy route, which is to not pmo.
     
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  4. TwelveFoot

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    Along with exploring most of the stuff already mentioned in this thread is was also pretty into cartoon/animated/cg stuff, because more extreme things are possible when the "people" literally have no physical limits. Also erotic fiction for much the same reason .
     
  5. arpyegap

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    That is very well said and the difference between an addiction and simply a poor choice or bad habit. You, like me, are an addict. As you say, it goes way beyond a "just say no" (showing my age there for anyone who remembers Nancy Reagan) mentality. I do not believe that addiction can be cured or solved by willpower alone... that's why it is an addiction. I also got into the hidden camera stuff. After recording my wife (who I love very much) I looked at myself and wondered who the hell I was and what the hell I was doing! It was shortly after that I sought SAA & came back to NOFAP.
     
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  6. MasterRoshi

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    I can relate 100% to your story. I was writing some extra sexual ideal stuff for my 4th step and treating others as sexual objects just so I could feed my hornyness, regardless of the love and respect I had for them in general when I wasn’t consumed by those intensely horny moments... this is one of the big regrets of my addiction; seeing everyone around me as an object for pleasure, and having no say in the matter.

    Thanks for sharing!
     
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  7. 19m

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    Mine is transsexual / feminine men porn . And I’m on day 90 but there still there should I give up or keep going ? I know I’m straight but when I look at a girl I just can’t get it up as looking at a transsexual and this never happened before prom
     
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    Porn
     
  9. MarinoBigFan1984

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    I started to watch gay porn. That’s as far as I got.
     
  10. MarinoBigFan1984

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    I’m not gay but I do think I’d do certain role play with a man that I never thought about before porn.
     
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  11. 19m

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    Should I give up or keep grinding ?
     
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    Sometimes it takes longer than 90
     
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  14. MarinoBigFan1984

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    My goal is 107. I have a ways to go.
     
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  15. 19m

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    Same and I will keep going my story is very smiling to yours accept I wouldn’t enjoy doing anything with a guy irl infact penis is a turn off for me
     
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  17. betterlife1

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    I’m at a point where the thought or idea of sucking is arousing. Wasn’t the case as far as I can remember when I first started watching porn
     
  18. Theultimatefighter_21

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    My fetishes became strange to the point that not even the most inhumane porn could turn me on. To the point that i wanted to capture a random women (attractive, of couse), in the street and just do everything i want. I came here because it was almost late for me.
     
  19. I can certainly relate to this. The sex crimes in the news were getting interesting to me because they’d give me ideas and I’d wonder how I could commit the crime myself and get away with it.

    I’ve written a list of reasons I’m quitting PMO and put it in an envelope. I pull out the list once in awhile and look at it to remind myself why I’ve started this journey.

    One big reason on the list is I was going to become a monster that deserved to be locked up for the rest of my life.

    I’m very thankful that I never went past fantasy stage with the woman at the gym I was lusting after. I’d kill myself if I had committed such an evil deed.

    The cost of the therapist is minor compared to the cost of continuing with PMO.
     
  20. rooftop

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    I think so, femdom, findom, ridiculous cruel verbal humiliation etc

    Although is not rock bottom, at least I havent spent a single dime like it is habitual in that fetish..I do not know why but financial domination never got me though
     

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