How do I deal with images and urges? (images of relapsing & ideas how)

So, ugh, I lost the plot tonight and I relapsed, after a 50 day streak.

There were lots of factors but, what I found the worst thing, the most contributing thing was I kept imagining doing it - relapsing, I mean. I had this image of that in my mind HOUNDING me for most of the weekend and then I finally gave in.

Not proud of myself and it wasn't even as good as I thought it would be.

But my question is: How DO I deal with the image issue?

Plus when an urge goes but then it comes back later so you feel like it's NOT gonna go?

But my main question is about the horny-making images.

Even though my brain has already begun to reset and I wasn't as turned on by my PMO-induced fetish as normal and although a nude photo that was sent to me DID turn me on but it wasn't WHY I relapsed, it was the image of me relapsing and thinking how good it will feel. That kept returning to my mind CONSTANTLY. I did try to keep busy but also I was home (weekend) with a bad cold, plus house to self.

I want to know for next time, if I get that picture in my mind of relapsing and I start to think how good it will feel (it doesn't feel as good as how crap i feel now) how do I deal with that and get that effing image out of my head?

 

I would recommend writing a small note to your future self. Something you could pull out and read the next time you're tempted with this urge. In the note tell your future self exactly what you're feeling right now; how the temptation lied to you; how the feeling was nothing like what you imagined/fantasized it would be like and how you're worth more than a PMO session/relapse.

 

Thank you so much diddykong and
牢不可破 for your helpful advice. You both raise some excellent points and what you say is helpful. Yes, good idea. Use the memory of this relapse and how it was just NOT as good as it was in my head when I actually relapsed. This is what happened the last time (before this) I relapsed too. Yes, I will use this as a resource for future temptations. Good idea about the letter and the reward too.