Lets call this day 1 though I am off MO since 12 days. Wake up late and get a beautiful strong erection. Nothing unusual for me. I pull back my foreskin to caress slowly my glans for 5 minutes without stimulating to orgasm. Feels good, thereafter get ready for the day. Spending time the entire morning on nofap is not so good. Should rather concentrate on my work but Helps at least to clear my brain. Watching 3 minutes porn. Boring. Nude girls still arouse me. Do this for 10 minutes but no erection. When my coworker leaves for lunch get an erection. Instinctively my hand goes in my pants. Touch my penis but don't rub it. Smoke cigarette and the erection fades away. very late lunch at 3pm soy bean stuff. Said to lower testeron level. Not sure if this helps but definitely can't harm and goes well with loosing weight. I am not overweight but want to get rid of my belly. Get several erections during the day without visual stimulations. Try not to fight them but to enjoy them. Come home cook dinner daily family routine. Go to bed. Trying by purpose to get an erection with breathing technique. Worked well for pleasant feelings without orgasm. Playing with my glans is very satisfying. Day 2 Hands free session in the morning with the intention to reach orgasm. Almost got to ejaculate. Good feeling though. Thereafter played a few minutes with my thing with no intention to reach orgasm. Tried to concentrate on the loosing power as a relief. Need more practice. I feel having a lot of energy for the day. When showering search for my P spot. The rest of the day was a camouflaged disaster. I didn't watch porn but got into activities just mimicking it. Not a total relapse but some sort of acting out my brains demand. When back home I tried to orgasm without touching myself and it took me 2 hours to get just an erection which didn't last very long. So I gave it up in the end and came back to nofap website to make a new decision. Just go radically to zero and reset my counter. Day 1 hard mode So here I am at the beginning of a new life. Easy to say 'just don't do it'. But J am determined. Day 2 hard mode The morning starts as usual with a beautiful massive and pleasant erection calling me to orgasm at least. My mindset on this is to take a moment to fully enjoy the feeling, close my eyes and imagining a nice ejaculation and wait until it is over. I call it mental self reward. Pause my writing because I get another erection. Good feeling. Got a refreshing cold shower in the morning. One small success when weighting myself. I am back to what I have been. And I thought that I should go back to do the 7 minute physical exercise i had been doing as a New Years resolution until April. Now ready for the day. The day wasn't too great despite I didn't watch porn nor tried to masturbate. However I spent the whole morning to distract myself. Couldn't wait for lunch break to smoke 2 cigarettes apparently for my dopamine cravings. In the afternoon I worked a bit but couldn't finish what I had set as a goal in the morning. In the afternoon I went to the men's room to check myself. Pulled down my pants and looked at my flaccid penis. Would I get an erection? After 5 minutes I was relieved that nothing happened and went back to work. After coming home too busy to think anywhere in the direction of PMO. Now it is late night and compared to the nights before where I tried to reach a hands free orgasm without success, I am very calm now. Any sexual thoughts are somehow gone. Don't even want an erection. Nice peaceful mindset. Wished this would be all the time like this. Day 3 hard mode Daily rhythm is repeating. Wake up get stiff enjoy the moment and when it is over get ready for the day. There seem to be cycles of erections without artificial arousal. For me 15 minutes after waking up, around noon and later around 3pm. Now it is short before noon and I am getting my erection and because I am alone in the house I take a private moment to lie naked on the bed to enjoy the feeling without touching my penis. While doing so I am so relaxed that I am dozing off. When I wake up the erection comes back not so strong any more. Take my time to enjoy the feeling. After another 20 minutes keeping it up I feel completely relieved and satisfied almost like after having sex. I am especially concentrating consciously on the dimming down my eyes closed and telling myself: 'this felt so good, really good.' Session finished got my full reward for the day. The rest of he day is until late at night with no more thoughts of erections or sex. After along day I go to sleep just because I am tired and sleepy. Day 4 hard mode I think I still could glimpse at a porn movie for a minute just to find out that it is boring and doesn't excite me any more to get an erwction. So at the moment I seem to be safe for porn. My morning erection arrives around 8:05 and holds full 40 minutes. The longest and intensest I experienced so far. To enjoy it fully I pull my penis up with a loop around my shaft. It gets not only hard but beautifully ultra hard the glans being totally exposed and shiny from its fullness. Extremely exciting feeling and though doesn't bring me to the point of ejaculation I feel high like when watching porn for a prolonged time. The dimming down takes as well longer than usual. The best reward for no PMO I had so far. After my penis gets flaccid I feel super relieved.