HOCD getting worse ?!

Do not trigger yourself with anything, try to be occupied with other things.

 

Accept yourself

 

if you're fantasizing about porn or porn influenced things you've seen you're essentially watching porn. Fantasy is porn's back up drive.

First, stop questioning.
Second your thoughts do not equal you. We all have thoughts like "i could KILL HIM" but we don't do it. People also have fantasies - like dreams - for symbolic reasons and it is NEVER meant to be manifested in reality. A sissy fantasy, for example, might reflect low self esteem... the 'message' is not that you're a sissy or that you should keep fantasizing the 'message' is - "i need to work on self esteem'.
Third Read a book about general OCD - like Brain Lock - learn the techniques.
Fourth: google 'urge surfing' and learn to practice it.
Fifth : If you stay in your head, you're dead. In your head is fantasy. It's not reality. Get out in the real world. Challenge yourself. Occupy your mind. Run, Workout. walk. lift weights, pick up a new sport.

 

do not test yourself, that's like playing with fire. Once you realize it, bam, you're back at it again and full of regrets as always. occupy your mind, stop doing everything you usually do that leads you to P, whether its a chair you're used to sit on while using your phone, or a desk where you're using your laptop, etcetera (those are called anchors). try changing those and turn them into completely new environments, and fill those with good actions (like studying)
sorry for my not-perfect English