Hi there awesome people

I'm an open minded 19-year old student from Germany who likes to work out, play guitar and learn languages. I'm basically just a normal dude. Nonetheless, I've come a across a rather unusual problem for a man my age about a week ago.


I've been with a girl which I really like and after a few dates things got hot and heavy in my room with her. It was something that I've been looking forward for a long time, mainly because this was my first time having sex and because it just felt 'right' to have it with this girl. I had some relationships before that and I made out often with girls but it never got far enough that it could have led to sex.

Now finally I had this awesome moment and what can I say... I failed. I wasn't able to get an erection, which really bothered me. I tried it a second time a few days afterwards but after a short time my boner just faded and I was left with a flaccid penis again. We continued to make out and the girl said it didn't bother her but I felt terrible. I felt like I had failed in one of the most fundamental aspects of being a man. But I'm not someone to get stuck in this depressed state of mind - not anymore.



That's why I directed my mind forward and looked up the website of YourBrainOnPorn, ordered and read a bit of their book and ultimately landed here. I've stumbled upon this website some time ago but back then I felt like I didn't have a porn-related issue. Masturbating to porn still worked fine back then and I even got erections during making out and so on but when it really 'counted' and I wasn't able to get the full erection necessary for good sex I came to the conclusion that something had to change.


In retrospect, during the last weeks I found myself having only a half-erect penis during masturbation to porn as well, something that I had never experienced in all the years I've masturbated.
I think I started somewhere around the age of 13 and back then I was only able to use pictures of scantily clad women which I transferred with Bluetooth from my cousins phone. As soon as I got my first smartphone though I discovered streaming sites like Pornhub and so on with their hardcore streaming services.


From there things only went 'downhill'. I was introduced to hentai, which hooked me with all its variety and possibilities. I've seen and 'tried' a lot of fetishes, a lot of which I'm really not proud of, others that I think aren't that bad even today and some which I just never really fully understood but in the end they all contributed to the fact that I got alienated from real life women and real sex. Furthermore, they led to a feel of guilt in me.


One of the fetishes that I've stuck to during all the years is the GTS and GTS/vore genre. I'm a big fan of many vore artists and I enjoy writing stories set in fantasy world like for example Felarya, created by Karbo. I think that this is a very open-minded and friendly community and also a great place for unfolding my creativity as a hobby writer.
But in the end this genre is also far from anything that you could ever experience with a real women during real sex and thus probably one of the reasons for my problem.


Now I want to change. I want to try NoFap and not using porn for as long as I need to in order to have a working and enjoyable sex life and I want to experience the other advantages that many people talk about.
I've tried NoFap for a weak in the past and it felt great and during that time I was introduced to a lot of things that I'm thankful for.


Hopefully this time I can get even further and I'm looking forward to exchanging my problems, achievements and overall experiences with you guys!


Cheers!

 

Thanks for the encouraging words Sir!