Hi, I'm new here.

Hi, first of all I'm very glad to find this forum, I had no idea about this and I wish I could have found it earlier in my life.
My name is Cristiano I'm 26 years old and I have P problems since my 12 years old when I used to "read" a P magazine from a friend. Since then, I could not stop doing that. When I was in church at my teenage, I tried to stop many times, but I only failed, I managed to be clean for 3 - 5 days max, but I always came back to it and I always felt terrible after the act. So I just gave up and embrace it, because people said it's normal, every boy does that etc. Because of that, I never felt the necessity to find a girl, instead, it was much easer to go P, like a shy person I am. I've been suffering this untill now.
I'm not happy with my life, I have will to change that, but not the strength, I don't know it's just stronger than me. In December 2nd, I was reading about this theme in a Facebook page and that made me realize my current situation is due because I'm addict to P and M. Then after that day, I made a decision: to drop for good P and be a healthy person. I excluded my P collection, I felt it as a hard hit inside me.
This is so hard, in my day, a voice in mind keep telling me to watch P and do that, it's almost inevitable, I have no idea how I am resisting that much, sometimes I want to cry, because I want to be strong and beat this thing, but I just can't find my strength. To be honest, I can't see me being that much away from it, but I don't want to go back there, I want a change in my life and start it by beating this, I'm tired to lose this battle. For the first time in a very long time in my life, I have hope and faith.

 

Thank you man!

I'm trying to keep my mind busy like reading a book, workout, playing some games, helping in house tasks and avoiding sexual thoughts. My religion didn't help me that much, so I'm not a practician anymore, to be honest, science made a bigger impact to me than my religion in this case, that's why I want to change.
Today I had an erotic dream, as soon I realize it, I woke up and started my day on, I'm glad I could manage that.