Hi guys i need help

Hi guys it will be 442335453 time that i write on it. i tried to start nofap 2 years ago and till today i can't resist for more one week!!! i watch every day porn: i really love mature womans category because it's real for me. when i'm watching that porn it seems that i'm fucking that woman but it's not the reality! i'd like to stop forever marsturbate my cock and i'd like to make only sex! i have a girlfriend from 3 years but she can't satisfy!!! it seems tha we are an old couples that fuck one time a month (but i have 21 yo)!!! this is frustrating for me and i want betray her with other girls because she is boring! this is the cause of my frustration!! i try to speak with her i said that i will left her! but i can't because it's 3 years that we are together!!!!!!!! i know that i must try win this addiction for my benefits but in this period i masturbate my cock because of her! i'd like to reboot my life! i can't pass an exam in university because i masturbate my cock all day shit! i have a lot of anger inside me! i know that i had a sex life satisfing i will spend a lot of time to study, do sport, hobbies, family.. but i can't! can u help me with some of your history please? this is a war for me and i'd want to win!

 

i notice that i can't organize my life and spend more time how we like to spend