Hi all :)

Hi guys. New to NoFap, made an account a couple days back but only choosing to introduce myself now, decided to take my time probably because I wasn't sure if I could commit myself to the concept of no pornography and no masturbation, especially cause I have dedicated years to it and I most certainly love it but its very clear to me and in an intuitive sort of way always has been that it is ultimately to my detriment.

Have spent the past couple days, watching videos on YouTube about NoFap and its benefits, whether it was Terry Crews or Gary Wilson or the many a testimonies which are readily available on the internet, it is extremely clear to me that abstinence from pornography and masturbation can be a very rewarding experience as long as one uses the energy which might have otherwise gone into the same into a completely new and constructive avenue altogether.

Little bit of history about me. I'm almost 30, I'm a virgin, I'm a recovering addict. As I mentioned earlier I love spending time alone in my little space watching pornography and stimulating myself but I feel my recovery is getting stuck because I've kind of begun to use porn as a replacement to drugs and now its become a problem. In-fact, the idea that I was attracted to NoFap is itself a testimony to the fact that I have a problem with porn and masturbation; I use it to ignore whats lying in front of me, my problems, my demons, my insecurities all of which are vital for me to look at as stepping stones in my recovery.

Also porn is making my mind sicker, as Terry Crews rightly pointed out, that it can twist ones perception to the point where we start viewing women as objects, "body parts", etc. Almost everything has become a trigger for me, I see something suggestive (only to me perhaps) and I just want to run back home and choke the chicken.

Anyway, I'm sorry for the terribly long first post but I had to just get it out of me (no pun intended).

Cheers

 

Hi DJ. Went thorugh your list, must say its pretty comprehensive, yours must be quite the story. Have you shared it here, if so, link plz ?

Thanks for the list BTW. I'm trying to convince myself pretty hard that I don't have a problem and that I should go and beat the meat but of-course there is a part of me which is telling me that isn't such a good idea as I'm almost 5 days through and just how in group therapy we say that people who don't have a problem with drugs don't end up asking themselves if they have problem with drugs, so ya If I've started my journey at some point, its only because I feel afflicted.