Hey from a Friendly Canadian!

Greetings from Canada!

I've never gotten too deep into porn, it was masturbation more for me and watching videos on youtube of make out sessions. It made me masturbate a lot, and I mean a lot. It got to the point where it was destroying myself, destroying relationships in real life as I didn't want to go out and do things as I felt so much shame and guilt. This has been going on for a number of years now.

It ended up where I tried to kill myself just over a year ago. Thankfully I failed and I was locked away in the mental health unit of the hospital for a few months. Even though those times were very hard I received great help from my time being in there and I still regularly see my psychiatrist about once a month. My family was shocked when they found out but thankfully I've had a lot of positive support from them.

I still relapse from time to time but I find I have been improving myself greatly. I'm working out more, finding hobbies I enjoy doing, spending time with friends/family, playing sports, etc. I don't know if I'll ever conquer this (as I said earlier that I still relapse every once in awhile) and hopefully my darkest days are over but I'm glad I have found this site for support and I hope to be a positive support to all of you as well.

You all have brighter days ahead and don't give up the fight!

Thanks for your time of reading! Hope to get to know you all!

Cheers for now.