Help! Strange 118 Days Experience followed by Relapse

Hello everyone,

New to the forums here but not NoFap, I’ll try to make it quick, but here is my experience. Please read!

I have a gf..hot and everything I’ve wanted but was fapping so I decided to start NoFap..No PM but did have O because of girlfriend. Let me start off by saying I’ve never thought of myself as an addict i would watch P and M maybe once, twice a week max, on different days, nothing predetermined.

It would help me relax and sleep but days following would always be full of brain fog.

Anyhow I decided to start..around the 70th day I noticed the brain fog was gone it felt great..but that’s about the only difference I noticed. I decided to keep going cause why not..*side note I’m on social media often because of my job in advertising etc so I occasionally come across those “models” and before I would always be fascinated and infatuated with models and they’d turn me on and in turn would turn into M. Anyways fast forward to around the 100th day this no longer phased me, models, even took a chance at looking at porn, and nothing I felt disgusted by it tbh and felt it was boring. Sounds great right??

Here’s the problem..I also no longer felt attracted to my girlfriend and I always have been and were always very sexually active..before and even when I started NoFap we were doing it 3-4 times a week..now I didnt even have the urge or feel the need to and it kills me because I love doing it and so does she.

My sexual attraction to all women was practically 0..the brain fog was completely gone but that’s it..118 days in I decided to try and turn myself on to P again and after some time it worked..I relapsed for about 2 weeks but during those 2 weeks my sex drive came back and was back to having O with girlfriend and fapping is back but maybe once every 2 weeks now and everything was back to how it was.

Anyone experience this before? I didn’t think I’d lose my sexual drive completely but honestly it was a bit scary I felt like I had no interest in women anymore.

 

That does sound like what it could have been, the only thing is that it mentions a lot that the reason mainly is that you need real physical contact and you need to get your brain used to the real thing. Which i was getting regularly and never had an issue with before. So i am a little confused