I have been edging and before orgasming deciding it's not worth it and letting it go. The past three ejaculations I've had have felt like squirting water out my penis. I don't feel anything. It's just two squirts and some drip and I didn't feel anything. Also how do I stop fantasizing about people I will never have sex with? I've been fantasizing about females I know in real life, but sometimes they are flirty and sometimes they treat me like shit. I want to distance myself from them and don't want to fantasize about them. I have lost hours of sleep fantasizing resisting the urge to stroke. My new years resoulution is to not masturbate 2019. How do I stop jerking it to not porn videos, but twerking and booty pics and stuff like that. Instagram and Youtube have led to relapses a lot. I can't delete them, because I would have nothing else to do. Also what do you guys think? I like to write my dreams down. I have a dream journal app, but leaving a device next to my bed leads to looking up twerk videos in the morning before even getting out of bed. Please help.