I have become badly depressed. I've been trying to beat my addiction for a little over a year now. I'm addicted to cybersex and sex chatting websites. It only got better for a small period of time. Now seems worse than ever before. I let people use me, and I use them. I've had suicidal thoughts. A few days ago I was taking a bath and thought about letting myself fall asleep there. I have intrusive thoughts about overdosing on my medication. I just want everything to stop. I just want it all to go away and I don't want to wake up and face another day anymore. I never do it though. I'm so afraid. I'm seeing my doctor on Thursday and I'm going to tell her the things I'm writing now. But I don't know what to do and I'm scared.