HELP - Ejaculated Without Erection

So this is just great. Today I fucked-up my 40-day no PMO streak in hard mode. For whatever reason I was really horny, and ended up looking at some porn because I ran into a girl that I find quite attractive (long story; likely irrelevant) who also likes me. Anyway I basically jerked off but never orgasmed. So then, I went to this one girl I know to get a handjob and she did this body rubbing thing and what-the-fuck I ejaculated in like 15-30 seconds without an erection.

Has anyone had anything like this happen before? Is it due to masturbating earlier in the day but not finishing or is it due to me rebooting or could it be one or the other or both? Has anyone recovered from this before? I know I'm still capable of getting hard but I'm kind of like "wtf" right now.

 

Breadman -- have you been able to heal from it? Or is this just basically something not to worry about i.e. I just need to quit jacking off period and things will go back to normal? I mean shit I came home after the massage and PMO-ed with a hard-on so I assume this is just a fluke due to the PM from earlier in the day and not getting the release.

Eh... I know I totally fucked up my count today from the PM plus the fact I basically got jerked off by this massage girl. I'm not angry at myself like I would've been years ago when my addiction was REAL bad; mood swings and all after PMO, but I am disappointed quite a damn bit with myself. 40 days down the fucking toilet. Then there's of course the fear that I'm gonna be alone my whole life and never have a good relationship with a woman and a family. I'm basically... "afraid" (or maybe just lazy or both; I don't know anymore) of hitting on women in the meantime for fear of ED rearing its head. I've gotta think not going out and hitting on women is fucking me over even more because I'll never have a family if I don't go out and meet some real damn women and develop more of a social life than what I currently have.

 

During this recent 40 day no NoFap streak that I just effed-up today, I had I think 2-3 wet dreams. What kills me about wet dreams is that I'm a very light sleeper, so I've woken up whenever I've had one every single time in my life except for *once*. I used to have wet dreams nonstop when I was a teenager, and it drove me nuts. When I started beating off to porn, I noticed I'd stop getting them which was convenient because I could sleep without being interrupted. What sucks is when I first started looking at porn regularly, I had a thought when I was 16-17 where I was like "Y'know... I probably shouldn't be doing this every day", so I stopped PMO-ing for exactly two weeks and at the end of that two weeks I started waking up in the middle of the night again due to wet dreams. And that's where the downward spiral with this addiction all began; I justified my PMO to keep wet dreams away. I really wish I'd never gotten into porn because despite probably being a zombie due to not getting enough sleep (which I tend to not get enough sleep anyway) I at least wouldn't be having all these damn PIED type issues.

 

No -- after ejaculating while being completely flaccid, I came home and PMO-ed to test my tool. Turns out everything still works fine in that regard; got erect and ejaculated again so I guess earlier it must've been due to having been edging quite a bit in the morning.

 

That's definitely interesting having a flaccid ejaculation while meditating with a girl. I'd never heard of that happening before but if what just happened to me happened to me, I imagine that kind of thing can happen to anyone. As to being nervous, I definitely wouldn't rule it out of the realm of possibility. Funny thing was I had just received a massage and thought I was rather relaxed, but I guess my subconscious thought otherwise (good possibility since it was an escort-ish situation; and I definitely don't feel comfortable with those kind of women as I would a girlfriend or hell even a fuck-buddy). At least on the bright side I don't appear to be the only person who's had this problem. Anyway... Day 2 of my no PM hardmode streak! w00t w00t! lol

 

Damn that sounds like torture, man. I think I've been either borderline fantasizing before or just bouncing my legs (unfortunately when doing that my junk rides up on my left leg thus stimulating it) and I'll say there have definitely been a few times where I thought I was on the verge of jizzing in my pants from that. Thankfully I've never done that as it would've made for an incredibly uncomfortable situation at work.

 

Ay at least you're still able to get solid at your age man. That's an impressive feat these days -- especially with the modern American diet (I'm assuming you're American).

 

So what made you get into NoFap? Do you have a PMO addiction like the rest of us? You grew up way before the age of the internet and with what you told me about your physical activity levels, the only thing that I can see that could have any negative affect on your erections is your age. But I imagine you're probably in the top-5% of men your age in terms of testosterone level and health so...?