Hello everyone.

I am a new member here in nofap and I have just created this account minutes ago. Originally, I was only going to join an anxiety forum but I figured it would be best to be in a forum with people who are in the exact same situation as me.

So hello. I am currently 17 years old. I started masturbating when I was grade 9 and I am now grade 12. On the start of grade 10, I started having problems that seemed to be related to excessive masturbation. I developed a semi stress incontinence (it only happens right after I pee. I have no problems holding in), and what I assume, is fecal incontinence although it is not feces, but just a clear liquid.

My biggest problem though is smell. Basically it started when we were in a cinema, and I peed (remember when I said I have no problem holding in before I pee, the incontinence only starts after I pee). After about an hour, I noticed my left thigh was kind of wet. I have no idea how it got wet, and it definitely wasn't urine (note that I was sitting the whole time, being in a cinema and all. Water does not climb up. Just in case I also checked and my man part definitely wasn't wet) but I still got scared nonetheless. I started smelling but the smell was only the hot smell that you would notice while taking a pee. Thats how it started. Basically almost anywhere where there is people, I smell like this.

What I've noticed though, is that it is psychological. In the very first weeks, my dad got me to believe the spraying perfume was the ultimate solution. I was really convinced then it worked. The smell dissapeared. But after my first perfume ran out, my father bought a different perfume. Because it was different, I doubted if it would still work like the other perfume. Behold, it didnt. The perfume trick stopped working even when I came back to using the first ever perfume. I've also noticed that when I am absolutely calm and totally preocuppied by something else, I don't smell either. But when I'm just listening passively, or sitting somewhere, I do smell.

It would've been fine if it stayed in the same intensity as it was when I was grade 10. But I got to grade 11, then now 12, and its only getting worse. When I was grade 11, I started trying out NoFap. I keep failing a bunch of times as expected, but at november, I was able to do a three-month streak until the start of febuary. One more proof that my smell is psychological was that the longer I didn't fap, the lesser the smell. Basically I've put it in my brain that if I don't fap, the smell will go.

So how did my streak end? Near the end of my streak, I started experiencing wet dreams week after week. Everytime I had a wet dream, it would reset my psychological status to smelling a lot. By the third time I got a wet dream, I got so discouraged I relapsed. Note that even if the first wet dreams were sexual, that very last one I dreamed of humping a pillow. A freaking pillow. I felt a loss in control and got so discouraged.

So basically thats my story. I am here now cuz things are getting worse and worse and my anxiety is going off the charts. Thus I wanna try at another streak starting today. I know my post is long but I do hope someone will take the time to read it. It is embarrassing to me but I'm writing this because I'm hoping someone else has experienced it or at least will understand my situation, because I really do feel alone.

Thats really it thank you for reading my shit and wasting your time just to read this. I really appreciate it I hope this will help to cope with my problems right now.