Hello everyone

Hello everyone, I came to know this site through a newspaper article on the internet. I do a little bit of effort in writing and reading in English but I will try to engage (helping a lot with the translator).
I live in Italy, I'm 24 years old and I have a problem with pornography for over 10 years. I am engaged for over 6 years, almost 7 and my girlfriend is not yet aware of this my problem. I kept it hidden from anyone, but now I'm realizing I need help. I tried to quit many times during my life, with long periods of up to 2 weeks.

Every time we repeat it is the last time but it is not like that. Sometimes I have been awake all night trying and downloading porn even without masturbating. Very often I closed with masturbation to try to end the agony. It's like having a dual personality, a normal one and the other with porn addiction, each trying to keep away from the other very often having moments of darkness between the two personalities.

I have briefly told what is most frightening to me, among them is the fear of losing my girlfriend.

Thank you for reading here. I hope to help and help.

"It's like on the plane," said Rhodes. "When you say, 'You have to put the oxygen mask first, and then you can help the others', that's why you'll get rid of it if you try to put the mask first on others. You need to be in balance with yourself in order to help others to help the world in the right way. "

 

THX Roady

 

Hi D . J ., thanks for the support.
lately I'm playing a lot at various video games, designing a lot and trying to stay away from sources that might cause me problems. The fact and that does not depend on what I look at, even a reference to sex could make me feel like watching and downloading porn. For now it is very difficult but I must do it.

 

thanks to everyone, I decided to start writing my diary

 

Thanks buddy.
You're right, this is the best choice I could do. Even I like you I did not know about NoFap until recently. The problem is that it was my dark half to not let me save myself. Now it is as if he had fainted for a moment and as he has always exploited my weaknesses I did the same and I exploited one of his own. The fact that you have found the site like me is good, probabilemnte because as you need to get rid of that damn obsession that destroys your mind and body. I have a lot of respect for you, at 42 years, it does not have to be easy but you've been very strong. I know the temptations are many but you can resist. NoFap is full of people ready to help you. We all fight the same enemy.
Thank you for writing.